Thursday, June 19, 2008

there are SO many people that I miss right now in life. like seriously miss, like aching in my gut miss. i miss Cam mostly at this moment its just too hard to be away from someone you love, and i know im being over dramatic and pathetic, especially since i know someone who is thousands of miles away from her fiance. but distance is still distance and being away from the one you love and not being able to be with them the way you want, in waiting for marriage, hanging out with them all the time and just having that closeness in relationship that you're just months, weeks, days away from is daunting, frustrating and exhausting at times. **sigh**

but not just that, i miss hanging out at school with my most dearest friends, i miss julie, i miss amber & traci, i miss dave (believe it or not!) i miss maren, carlene, heidi, tanya, holly, kendra. i miss walking into the guys place next door and awkwardly opening up the door without knocking to find one of them either in a towel or many of them walking around in boxers or no shirt! these wonderful friends made life super interesting and always fun!
i miss my sisters in law (to be) jen and michele, and the incredible relationship i already have with them... i miss my nieces (their daughters) i want to play with them and hug them and be the super cool aunt who plays barbies and sneaks them treats!

i miss my old gracepoint days when i would see nantina, alissa & amy all the time! that was so much fun... now i hardly get to see them.

why all the sudden the missing of close individuals? because i spent my day with Becky today, and it was SO MUCH FUN! but having that day with her today made me realise how much i miss my days with all of my other super close friends and how much i miss my coffee dates, curb side guy chats (julie!) and park walks. how i miss staying up until 2am studying for a final the next morning and how much i hate that life moves on in small ways making it impossible to see everyone all the time.
i miss seeing Kortney for neighborhood walks, and bugging my guy friends mat & kevin. or living beside kailee.

but seeing becky today, my amazing, pregnant, halariously encouraging friend... made me realise again all the wonderful things that i get to look forward to in regards to getting married, eventually starting a family and taking new steps in my life in different directions than some of these friends and that its okay.
Some of these friends are at the same place as me, some just got married, others been married for a while and one (becky) is having her first child. So i have so many more great adventures and talks with them... so many more coffee dates, child play dates, wedding parties and just plain curb side conversations to have. and I am THRILLED that each and every one of these people understand that life moves on and relationships can continue to flourish and grow in situations which change all the time.

THANK YOU MY FRIENDS, for being such extrodinary people!
I LOVE YOU! **Hugz**

blessings to all.

2 comments:

kortney said...

Aww Nicole this was a sweet post, and a hard one too. What do I say? (This might sound hard and weird).

Enjoy your time being engaged!!! Enjoy some time away from Cam, and being "single" (obviously not in every sense of the word, haha). It's wonderful to be a girl and embrace girl time by yourself while Cam isn't around. You need to have this time I think and that's why I believe engagements are important.

Even still when Jordon goes away for the weekend, I miss him terribly and hate being lonely, but I choose to embrace it and do girlie things, by myself usually. Things I don't really do when Jord is around.

And I hate that relationships change from being high-school age. Especially with girls. I think that's what they should have told us when we graduated - that you don't really change so much as things around you change, so you have no choice but to go with them. It only changes more once the marriage occurs but you'll see!!!

Anyways, we'll hang out soon. I'll figure out when and send you a FB message!!! (Now that I'm done my novel...haha!).

Nicole Elisabeth said...

you're so right kort! I am starting to realise more and more that I need to embrace the times when I can just have time for myself... which is what Im doing today. Just catching up on some last minute wedding details and going to take a bath and read. This time is important, I think God is teaching me a huge lesson in paitence and trust, I just get stubborn most times!
But thanks so much for the reminder, I love and appreciate them!
Looking forward to your FB post!