Yet, in the midst of the screams my baby boy still existed in the chaos and I kissed many kisses, hugged many hugs, held him tight and did everything I could to try and help him while keeping some of me for myself. I put him down in the midst of the screams just to pee and put on some clothing to feel normal and breathe a few deep breaths of calm.
Thank-you to all my friends who wrote a comment on FB, sent up a prayer and a virtual hug and offered to come over. One thing I know for sure is that becoming a mommy has opened up a world of support and love from friends that I had not realized before. The friendships that have strengthened and others that have rekindled and more that have resurfaced are full of encouragement, love and a commonality that transcends all else. So THANK-YOU! Thank-you, thank-you! So much!
Here's to hoping and praying that the night is good tonight still and tomorrow is great and my strength increases. I'm learning so much from my Edison about myself and who I wish to be for my little guy while learning about who he is too.
This mommy job is the hardest thing I've ever gotten myself into, but I couldn't imagine my life without the boy behind today's crazy. He's too cute and too special and has such a grip on my heart. I love you Edison Lyle.
N.
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