HAWAII! Im leaving on Tuesday at 4:30 in the morning for the airport! and we'll be arriving at 11:00ish in the morning when we actually land in Hawaii. I cant even believe that im going again, this will be my third time. the beauty of the place just brings me to awe at the glory of God. that He created the incredible scenery, wow! words dont describe.
so i have about four hours when i get home from work tomorrow to pack and get things ready... AHHHH!!!... im not even close to being ready for it... im reminded of one of my horrible dreams when i need to pack in a hurry to get somewhere but i cant pack for some reason, those always end badly. i hope it doesnt end in that, i dont think it will... i have an idea of what i wanna bring, its just a matter of putting it all in a case.

so i got to see cam yesturday.
i miss him....more then i realise after he is gone back to camp. when i lay in bed, just about to fall asleep and think about him and how crazy blessed i am. then i miss him so much it hurts... i miss talking with him and getting to know him. we've been dating five months and ive only known him for eight. so there is still tonz to find out... im so curious, im so eager, im so in love with him! **blushes**

i have found that when i think about my digestion and lack of proper function, i come to understand how much i have allowed my IBS and my troubles with it to define who i am. this... is stupid! i am not "the IBS girl" i am "a child of God" and that alone shall define who i am and my purpose. i deal with a digestive problem, i get sick constantly... its a reality of my life, but it is not who i am. this i need to remember and take account. i am allowing it to control me... i dont need to let it anymore, cause it does not take the place of my God. i know in all the places of my heart that God is bigger then even my silly digestive system, and has the power to heal me! :)

Be Blessed! Amen.