today was mothers day, which was such a wonderful thrill for me to absolutely spoil my mother (and soon to be mother in law). i made my mother breakfast, bought her flowers, a cd, some chocolate and an apron with fancy new oven mits. all with the help with my brothers and my father of course. it was such a fun day, to drive into Richmond and spoil my grandma with our presence, buy her flowers and give her tonz of kisses. i love to make the important women in my life feel amazing, they deserve every moment of it and i expect it from my children when they are my age. its the thing to do... spoil the ones you love with love and gifts! :)

lately, ive been scared of my health. ive been scared because things aren't working properly and ive discovered what coffee does to me, which is such a downer since its one of my favorite treats. but coffee FOR SURE gives me tough headaches, wreaks havoc on my digestion, gives me cramps and makes me sleepy, this is even the case with decaf. tough huh?! ive been trying other "helpful" digestion remedies which are supposed to help me but have done nothing, i take a handful of pills in the morning and hemp hearts to give me some relief and health, all they do now is make me almost gag. BAAAAA!!!! and its next to impossible for me to find a doctor who will LISTEN and get down to the bottom of my failing health. my inner ears hurt all the time now too... im concerned that i have an ear infection thats been brewing for the past couple of months but if thats the case then i believe i would be a lot sicker than i am (like fever, loss of balance, etc..)
IF ANYONE KNOWS OF A GOOD DOCTOR TAKING PATIENTS PLEASE GIVE ME THEIR NUMBER!
cramps and crazy fatigue which ive been struggling with for the past week along with insane cravings and intense desire to snack have been my days lately. when your hormones are all over the place it seems impossible to control what you want to put in your mouth, so i feel out of control in the whole diet territory which has made my diet impossible to follow. tomorrow im back on the program, im putting my foot down against myself and its certainly not easy. i mean when you feel like crap you just want to eat crap and forget the consequences of it.

okay, i sound like a downer.

reality, i am finding new ways to deal with everything. my intelligent brother put it this way "YOU only have the power to get over it and find a way to live with it and fight it" sooo much truth in that.

Life is wonderful and wedding planning is going very well. Its almost time for bridesmaid dress shopping! :) eeeeeeekkkk..... its still all so surreal, even after the wedding dress shopping, I LOVED trying them all on, I almost wish it would have taken longer, so I could have allowed it to sink in more.
Marriage and all that comes with it is sinking in more and more these days, the intense conversations, and such that come along with them are making things a bit more real for me today, a good real of course!

Work tomorrow, then a wonderful time with Nantina to discuss wedding, chat it up and for me to admire her new intense skinny figure! very excited.
and I hope to see Alissa this week... that would be super!
wahoooo for good friends and good times! I looooove my coffee dates :) (well, tea dates now I guess)

Blessings