Happy 1st birthday Edison!

Last night as I nursed my son and put him in his crib to sleep I stepped out of his room and started to cry. Embraced by my husband I expressed how surprisingly hard it's been for me to see my baby boy turn one. I'm not sure why. I look through the photo books and scroll through my phones pictures and my eyes fill up with tears. My son is still with me, he's doing extraordinary things, he's growing up. And he's supposed to do that, it's his job in life to grow and explore and discover. I'm excited for the future but sad that my baby is no longer a baby but now a big boy instead!

I'll get over it. But then again he won't stop growing and each birthday and each milestone that passes by will bring me to tears but I guess that's ok. My son makes my world incredible, he makes it all worth it. I have always known that I was going to be a mother but I didn't know that I was really going to love it as much as I do. I love it! Every. Single. Moment. I guess I just don't want it to end, I'm not ready for this season to end. But I know it's not over, it'll just constantly look different, that's all and that's perfectly okay.

I am so grateful for Edison, I wish him all the greatest things life has to offer. I hope he carries happiness, joy, peace and love in his heart. I pray that he is always safe and finds what makes him truly happy in life. I ask God everyday to create in me the mother my son needs. To lead me to be the mother I'm meant to be and parent Edison in the best and most gentle way possible.

Happy first birthday baby boy! Mommy loves you so so much.


N.