okay... so is it bad that i want babies?
hahahaah... before you answer, let me explain, i was out today with my good friend kortney who is very pregnant (sorry kort, but its cute!) and then there my good friend becky who is also super pregnant (i know becky doesn't read this so i don't need to apologize but shes cute too!). so at starbucks today there was this ADORABLE little toddler Trinity running around the place and then another very new baby boy in another womans arms just beside Kort and i and then i started thinking. Wow!... that'll be kort in December, and then... in a couple years, that will be me. and in the midst of the cute kid running around and all the pregnancy happening in that little starbucks today i said outloud... I WANT KIDS! and i do... not tomorrow (well, not December) already but definitely in at least two years, or three!
another great thing about getting together with Kort today... the stress level about the surgery went down, waaaaay down. and although Alissa who is a nurse and has been coaching me to not stress about this surgery has helped, and Amy who has forced me to promise chanting the phrase "i will be fine! i will be fine" each day every day... has helped. knowing that Kort has gone through it and that it truly is "not a big deal" has helped enourmously. So I am planning to speed through my file day tomorrow and Sunday. Eat the most fantastic Thanksgiving meal of my life on Sunday night, and then work another quick day Monday. And not fret about my surgery after that.
I promise myself that I will not fret... and I am seriously understanding the concept of handing over all control to God, and if you knew me, like really knew me, you would know how hard that can be for me.
**deep breath**
blessings!
2 comments:
awww... i'm glad that you're feeling less stressed about the surgery. just remember that all those doctors and nurses are going in to the surgery with the attitude and mindset of "we are here to help you get better and to ward off as many complications as we can" :) they want you to do well almost as much as you want it to go well!
i tried to stop by your house on saturday when we were out riding on the scooter but you weren't home :(
i'm working until 3:30 i think on tuesday and we're having dinner with matt and cristina that night but if you want to do a coffee we can do it right after i come home from work if you want! let me know... call my cell.
love you!
ok i got that a little wrong. i'm off at 3 then i am going to vote and then i'm free after that :)
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