A very wise momma friend of mine was very helpful the other night. She said that I need to parent my baby. What a concept! But honestly it never occurred to me that my once eat, poop & sleep newborn was now a fast approaching toddler. He needs to be parented, now, at nine months old. And it's MY (& cams) choice how that happens. MINE! ME! I choose (& cam). WHAT THE??!! It's too much responsibility. GAH! What if I make the wrong choice?!
How did this all the sudden happen?! My boy is quickly growing up. I knew it'd happen this way but it was like I blinked and here we are. My son relentlessly demanding his way when it comes to how he eats and sleeps (so far). YIKES. I'm in for a ride. I have a son who is super determined, stubborn, wants his way, knows what he wants, "me do it" and has me wrapped around his adorable pudgy baby finger. So now I have to (& cam) decide how to parent him in a way that is gentle, yet firm, allowing him room to express himself, yet set expectations that we hope we can peacefully stick to.
So right now, before we make any decisions that require us to "own it" I'm going to process the fact that my son is nine months old today. I'm going to enjoy the nursing relationship we have that's showing no sign of slowing down. I'm going to maybe even cry a little at the fact that my baby is growing and that's exactly what he's supposed to do. I never knew my heart could love this much. I never knew my life could be so blessed.
So I still don't really have any clue as to what to do to move forward from this put Edi to sleep issue. Falling asleep on me latched and hysterically crying if taken off to sleep. He's a smart one my boy, he knows the harder he cries the more inclined I am to stick my boob in his mouth. So now I (& cam) need to figure out for certain the plan and own it! Because we are in fact Edison's parents, not just the milk maid and the funny one.
Happy parenting
N.
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