While I watch this really intense war movie on tv, I just sit back and wonder how it really must have been to be there. To watch so many people die for such a cause that seems so unreal to me... such hate. Why do people hate so much?

There is a verse in 1 John chapter 4 somewhere which says "perfect love drives out all fear." I have taken this verse as almost a means to live by these past couple of months... the realization that love, Gods love is truly all I need in life. I have felt as though God is saying to me at times that the spiritual disciples, although amazing practices that place you in the presence of God are not all God is seeking for. God wants ME! All of me, not just the works that I am doing to get to him.... he wants my true heart, my true self, and yet Ive almost been afraid to show him. I guess I am worried that if he sees the "true me" he'll decide that to love me would be too hard. But that is nonsence. God loves me no matter what... he created every inmost part of me and although he sees both the good and bad, his love for me never fades. It never gets to be any less. What an incredible reality.
So the perfect love of Christ, drives out all the fear I have within my life. That when I allow Gods love, Gods perfect love to flow through every part of me and be the true means of my living, then the fear I have of life, of myself, of rejection and love will fade... it will fade right away. For there is nothing to be afraid of, when God loves and takes care of you he does just that. And he will, he does... no matter what. He will and he does no matter what you've done, no matter who you are.... I mean... the bible tells us so! so Praise God!