Yesturday I felt so convicted of the way Ive been spending my money. Its not that Im a horrible excessive spender... I mean thank goodness I do not yet have a credit card thats taking me hostage. But I have recently been convicted of my horrible spending habiats that just need to stop. Actually its good that Ive realized this now, considering I have about $35 to my name. And owe my mother close to $100. Yikies! Thats no place I want to be.

No matter how much I do not want to be in that place... I am. And Ive put myself here. Its okay though, Im making it work. And like I keep saying Gods really been amazing about teaching me and slowly persuading me to change my ways. Im excited to change my ways... to be transformed into the woman God has in store for me to be. Slowly and steadly becoming more Christ like, slowly and steadly changing my life... its definatly an exciting first step. Its even scary, considering I am turning 21 in July. My whole life is working towards me becoming an adult, a working, loving, living adult. I dont know about anyone else but this terrifies me! Thank goodness, God is slowly breaking the idea to my head and heart of what this is going to take, and I am steadly becoming very excited to reach the next point of my life.

But anyways... back to my conviction.

So my church is going through a stewardship campain. yippee! (can you hear the enthusiasm?) Honestly I am terribly excited for what they are chosing to do with the money they are going to earn. However, I had not been as supportive as I should have and God really broke me hard because of that... I had been so against giving money to the church, I had played victim in declaring that I felt used and the church was only in want of my money and not me.
And all those things were hurting me... desperatly hurting my financial situation.
God asks for every part of me. All who I am he asks for.... this includes my money. What right to I have to take what Ive declared as Christ's and spend it foolishly? Firstly, the most important investment that I make is my tithe to the church, my tithe to Christ. And in doing this faithfully I will be blessed, I will never have to worry in where the next pay cheque is coming from because God will provide, when I faithfully give to him what is his.... that which I have in the bank account, it may look very small to others, it looks small to me, yet it is everything I own. It is huge to Christ because it is his.... every penny is his. Therefore if the church asks for it... I give it. Of course I have to be wise I will not be a foolish person that will never save, I will finally, be a grown 21 year old woman and with my next pay check give to God what is Gods, and place the rest to build up for when He asks for me to spend it.
No longer will I be foolish with eating out (I cant really anyways cause of my eating restrictions). No longer will I buy clothes unless necessary... Give to God what is Gods... bank the rest awaiting when God asks me to use it, not just for school. But to generously give to others!

Praise God for this revelation.