Happy Thanksgiving

Today was supposed to be the day we were planning to tell my grandparents, aunts & uncle the news that we were expecting. Edison was supposed to wear his big brother t-shirt and we were going to wait until they noticed what it said. Then we were all going to be happy and hug and talk about the future.

But today will be different.

I am grateful this Thanksgiving. I am so happy with my life and the people within it. I am blessed to have Cam and my son. I am blessed with an incredible family and amazing in-laws. I really am happy.

But I'm still dealing with sadness and feeling the roller coaster of emotion regarding my loss. It's been hard, it's been sad to think who that baby could have grown up to be and missing out on knowing that soul. My eyes randomly fill up with tears as I go on with my life. As I hold my son, and I think about what will be missing at the end of May 2015.

But this Thanksgiving I'm going to choose be thankful and happy. I'm holding onto the truth that life moves on and that everything is going to be okay.
N.