I feel sooo overwhelmed by wedding details, O MY GOODNESS there are sooo many things to consider, I feel like something that we think is concrete just all the sudden works out horribly and needs to be re-planned. eeeekkkk!!!!...

Then there is the dreaded list of to-dos which doesn't seem to get smaller, my child psychology stuff and work still.
And not everyone has RSVP'd so although I was supposed to have everyone tell me no or yes by November 1st, its the 17th and I am still waiting on replies!
GRRRRRrrrrr.....

Im going to sleep now!

CAM AND I GOT A PLACE!

yippeeee... its a loft in the apartment complex that we were both dying to get into. we have laundry in our loft, and its like a house cause it has its own entrance and all... its in one of the townhome buildings and Im sooo excited to decorate it!

One bedroom, one bath and the cutest little kitchen. Its perfect for our first place!

what an answer to prayer :)

literally, i feel like superwoman right now. its not that i have tights on with an estranged need to fly... but that i feel like i have conquered such a horror in my life and that i have come up ontop, skinny style! hahaha...

ive lost a total of twenty pounds in the past two months. i don't mean to brag, and its not about bragging at all, its not about "o look im getting skinny" its about the incredible accomplishment of kicking enemy endo butt and how SureSlim (the program im on) has been such an incredible tool in the process of it all. so seriously, if anyone of you is looking for a way to get healthy, this program is amazing!

but its not even about the program, my friend Jared is over at my house with my brothers playing video games all last night and today! its such a hoot when Jared comes over and soon he s moving to Aussie so it was imperrative that he come soon, so we made sure that we went out and did something last night, and well us Kroekers love to eat so... we went to Olive Garden, we drank and we were merry! (brandon drove home). but after the meal, after the dessert, after the fun... and back at home with guys around me playing video games until five in the morning, i didn't feel anything. NOT A THING! in my precious little tummy of mine. its like Dr Williams took a magic wand and made all the horror of the past five years vanish. its as though the memories of sitting in the pantry and crying because there was nothing for me to eat without pain never actually occured. the pantry is not a vortex of death, it doesn't matter anymore.

three months ago, if i was going to have that awesome night of carboydrate fun with the guys, i would bloat so bad my pants wouldn't fit and i would immediately need either a sweater or sweat pants, i would complain of horrendous cramping pain and i would have it all for at least two days, followed with what my docs called "terminal constipation" i would have to spend the night tossing and turing from the cramps, drink masses amounts of herbal teas and use hot water bottles to ease the discomfort. all that agony over one bowl of pasta and some bread sticks! sometimes, i would even get the pain from a bowl of salad!!! i would also gain at least five pounds from the experience. no wonder i gave up on food choices and let go, huh?

its incredible how such a small procedure has now fixed all of that, and how such a small mishap in my reproductive organs could have caused such agony for so long. I am SO BLESSED! beyond what i ever could have imaged to be cured the way that i have and to have such incredible friends and family around me in the process. im still on the SureSlim program, its helping with making me feel completely transformed and completely different from that girl that went into the surgery centre almost a month ago. Seriously people, i came out different... endo free, and i am super excited!
and all in time for my wedding, woot woot! :)

Blessings.

hey everyone!

lots has been happening, work is great! I am really enjoying the file work, even when its unbelievably stressful, but it makes work and life always interesting. Keeps me on my toes!

wedding stuff! O my goodness, six weeks on Saturday and its HERE! eeeekkk... so very excited. Everything is coming together, I have things running through my head constantly, new things to do and reminders to book last minute details. I am thrilled with the outcome, its going to be better than I am expecting I think :)

Prayer request please!
Cam is looking for an apartment in Abbotsford, and we thought we got one, we were already to make the payment and sign the papers when it came back that the guy promised it to us a little too soon.. and needs to go through head office to confirm that its alright to offer to us. So.. what seemed like such a blessing and such a for sure thing is becoming more stress than needed. Please pray that if its Gods will that we can have this apartment, it has laundry, its in our price range, two bedrooms and its huge! I would looove to spend my first months as a married couple in that apartment.

As well, please keep praying for our house to sell. The market out there is not nice right now and my parents are feeling the effects. Its really scary and we just desperately want a sold sticker out on that sign.

thanks for the prayers and support,

Blessings!

ps. I am feeling fantastic lately! :)
mom even mentioned today that I haven't been complaining about pain at all anymore, which is because I don't have it anymore. PRAISE THE LORD that this healing has taken place, it was a long road, but it was definitely worth it!!
As well, I am back on my program and shed another five pounds this week. yipppeee...

woot woot... I can eat food with no pain!
life is FANTASTIC! Praise the Lord!

I feel as though the surgery has been this one overwhelming step in the right direction, although it feels like it NEVER happened, more like a dream, a very surreal experience. I am very cautious of how I am now, I am not expecting anything from this surgery except to feel exactly the same because if I expect anything other than that, and nothing changes, then at least I am not disappointed.

I need to take a step back and evaluate what happened, how I really feel and as soon as the after pains of surgery fade away, then I get to discover this "new me" that I hope gets to emerge. I hope that I start to love my body again, I hope I start to respect myself and the goals I wish to set out for me. I feel that I can close my eyes and see the place that I wish to be... the healthy place but it seems almost impossible to get there. BA!

But for now, I need to stay away from the mountains of Halloween candy thats filling my moms pantry... eeekk... I could really go for a m&m peanut right now :P

I just wanted to say a HUGE thanks to everyone who have been so supportive, loving, and incredibly encouraging and just wonderful this past week. I have received four flower arrangements! which was completely unexpected... visits from countless people, emails, comments on my blog and phone calls that unfortunately, most of the time I was either sleeping through or unable to get off the couch to answer. I appreciate EVERYTHING... its overwhelming me!
I am healing nicely... although I am still very bloated (I was just able to do up a pair of my pants today) and I am still in pain, I am confident that in a couple of weeks I'll be back to fully normal. However, I am unable to pick up anything heavy for a month! And I am not allowed to exert myself... I will do my best, and get lots of rest after my shifts at work this week ( I go back tomorrow) I know that in good time I will be 100% back to normal.

I am meeting with Dr. Williams in a month to discuss the results of the surgery, how I am feeling and some other things. I am eager to go over my photos and see for myself what they mean and what happened from her perspective.

Although I did nothing today, I am exhausted! :P I better go to bed... its still a challenge to sleep and I am to be up nice and early for work in the morning, its going to be wonderful to finally get out of this house and walking around again!

Blessings! and LOTS of thanks! :)

So... yesterday was surgery day! I got up at 9am just starving cause your bowels need to be empty, along with your stomach for the procedure. We left at 10am, Cam came and brought me some flowers and an autographed photo of Starfield from his trip to the youth convention on the weekend. It was really sweet of him :)

We all piled into the CRV (my parents and Cam and I) and then headed out to the Ambulatory Surgical Centre in downtown Vancouver, across the street from the St. Pauls Hosptial. I was nervous and in sweatpants and a sweat shirt. We got there early and hung out in the waiting room for just about an hour before they called my name. I then left my support team and went into a very nice room with a tv, my hospital gown & robe and waited another two hours or so. I had the sweetest nurse come into my room about a hour before they lead me into the operating room as they called it. She was soooo sweet and kind, asking me some questions while taking my heart rate. Then about a half hour from when she was in my room the anistetic guy came in and gave me the run down of what was going to take place when I got in the operating room. He was joky and fun! Talked fast though and realised that I was a little nervous. So.. a few minutes after he left I was lead down the hall by my first nurse to the operating room. I was helped up onto the table, and was given my IV which hurt the most out of everything that happened. It was fun though cause the guy that gave it to me kept me laughing and comfortable, after he put it in, to distract me from the sharp pain he said "look up here, do you see lots of medical shows? isn't this about the time when they play the dramatic music?"referring to the part of the IV that drips. And then he said things like "see, that didn't hurt so bad right? well... it didn't hurt me!" and then I said "well we don't want that!" hahaahah...
But then after a couple meds he put in my IV which stung! my nurse said "now you're going to be getting some oxygen through a mask... have you had that before?" And the moment I said no, I was out! I didn't even get to count back or forward like everyone says they get to while they're being put under, the next thing I remember is being in a different room, in the warmest blanket ever! Drifting in and out of sleep.
BUT... Dr. Williams did come to my side and grabed my hand and said that indeed IT WAS ENDO!!! And that there was lots! Majority of it on my right side and some on my left. I even have four incesions, two on my right, one on my left and one in my belly button. But I am soooo thrilled that this is exactly what this was. And that its all gone! the moment she told me it was Endo, that there was lots and that she took it all out, I cried...I just bawled cause the relief knowing that was just so overwhelming.
Now... it feels like someone has hit me in my stomach! hahahaa.. Im sore, and the gas they pumped in me for surgery hurts still, my shoulders and chest. Im afraid to sleep on my side, but I slept practically all of yesterday, I couldn't keep awake. It was actually kinda funny yesterday cause they had two nurses try and get me out of my bed cause I couldn't stand properly, and my mom had to help me change, I feel back asleep when the nurse was explaining to mom what my photos were about... heehee. poor her cause my photos are pics of my endo and where it was that she removed it from. They aren't pretty.
Great news!? The greatest there is?
The Endo was NOT on my fallopian tubes, nor was it on my ovaries or my cul-d-sac which means from my understanding that there really shouldn't be any reason for me to have trouble getting pregnant once Cam and I want babies, so my eyes just brightened up, and honestly so did Cams when I was told that. Now, the treatment is birth control, but I can for sure deal with that, and I see Dr. Williams in four weeks for a follow up where I have many questions for her.

And its been sooo sweet, Alissa visited me with flowers yesterday which was suuuuuper nice of her, and Kortney wants to come over today as well to say hi. My aunt and uncle are planning to come this weekend as well to visit.
I can't say enough thankyous to all who have prayed for me, phoned me, emailed me, facebooked me... Its been incredibly overwhelming to know how many people have cared about me so much these past couple of days in regards to my surgery.
THANK YOU SO MUCH! From the bottom of my heart!
Everything went well, so much better than I could have imagined... praise God! :)

okay... so is it bad that i want babies?

hahahaah... before you answer, let me explain, i was out today with my good friend kortney who is very pregnant (sorry kort, but its cute!) and then there my good friend becky who is also super pregnant (i know becky doesn't read this so i don't need to apologize but shes cute too!). so at starbucks today there was this ADORABLE little toddler Trinity running around the place and then another very new baby boy in another womans arms just beside Kort and i and then i started thinking. Wow!... that'll be kort in December, and then... in a couple years, that will be me. and in the midst of the cute kid running around and all the pregnancy happening in that little starbucks today i said outloud... I WANT KIDS! and i do... not tomorrow (well, not December) already but definitely in at least two years, or three!

another great thing about getting together with Kort today... the stress level about the surgery went down, waaaaay down. and although Alissa who is a nurse and has been coaching me to not stress about this surgery has helped, and Amy who has forced me to promise chanting the phrase "i will be fine! i will be fine" each day every day... has helped. knowing that Kort has gone through it and that it truly is "not a big deal" has helped enourmously. So I am planning to speed through my file day tomorrow and Sunday. Eat the most fantastic Thanksgiving meal of my life on Sunday night, and then work another quick day Monday. And not fret about my surgery after that.

I promise myself that I will not fret... and I am seriously understanding the concept of handing over all control to God, and if you knew me, like really knew me, you would know how hard that can be for me.
**deep breath**

blessings!

so... it has become evident that I am stressing out WAAAAAY too much. Especially when I go out for coffee with one of my good friends, Amy. And then she tells me to cool down and give it all to God, etc... then I come home and once checking my email have a biiiig one in my inbox from my fiance telling me the exact same thing!

I think God is using some of my most trusted friends/family to give me a message. And the message is?

TURN IT OVER ALREADY! and start breathing properly.

Actually, my stress has become so much that Im getting such bad migraine headaches and a year ago I wasn't getting any at all. As well, Im having a hard time breathing properly because I have so much anxiety. Its not good, its kinda scary when your deep breaths don't feel like deep breaths at all, and when there is intense pressure in your chest cavity.

I think that being stress free is of high importance right now... so I may have to start locking myself up in my house and on my bed for rest, and start dedicating time to serious prayer and take LOTS of bubble baths... if anyone has bubble bath to donate I am for sure able to take it off your hands!

Blessings to all...

at least I got a lot of wedding planning done! whew!

So I really should be in bed right now... Im exhausted and super hungry and need to be up early tomorrow because part of my new food plan is a weigh in every Tuesday morning. NOT looking forward to it. I don't think, well I KNOW that I didn't do well this week :'(
I think my stress is just up (when isn't it?) and cravings are really hard to overcome sometimes! But I know that this is just all apart of the process and there will be a time when I will take steps back but I can't obsess over everything.

EDIT: the weigh in today was SO GOOD! Ive lost 15lbs in total in the past 4 weeks! and Ive lost 6 inches, and 2% of my body fat! woot woot! Im definitely on track :D

I accomplished SO MUCH of my wedding planning today! It was fabulous! I went and saw my florist Esther, we decided on the entire floral department of the wedding. Its going to look incredible! Soooo much floral in the wedding, Im very excited! And... then mom and I took a trip out to Abby, picked up Cam quickly and headed off to meet with our decor lady. We talked all decor for the reception site and its going to look INCREDIBLE! Im telling you... super elegant. Im giddy just thinking about it.

But can you believe it? We're in October already! In 8 days Im having my surgery and then once Im recovered and back to work its TWO MONTHS! before the wedding... that means it'll be November and then BANG! its December and I'll be a Mrs. It just hit me last night as I laid in bed. But now that two of the most important aspects of the wedding are planned and taken care of. I am breathing all that much more better... and I even finished an aspect of our guest book, and started working on prepping the table numbers.

Im thrilled with what we have planned out... I can't imagine my wedding any other way than the way its coming about. This truly is my dream wedding! YAY!

Okay.. bed finally.. and one last important note:

IF YOU HAVEN'T RSVP'd TO MY WEDDING AND YOU GOT AN INVITATION
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE
RSVP SOON!

thank-you! :)

wow you guys! If you look at my tickers, things are starting to sneak up on me! and well, the stress of all of it is taking a toll and translating into massive migraine headaches. NO FUN! but its good, Im taking care of it with some R&R and some good quality God time.
Pretty much I suck it up and keep on trucking along.

Im going to CBC again this weekend, I am so very excited to see Cam again, its been waaay too long. And I get to see Traci, and Julie and Dave. Some of my most beloved friends!

I tried on my wedding dress on Tuesday, and it was PERFECT it IS perfect just absolutely wonderful. I am so excited to wear that dress on my big day. With my veil, my shoes and all. YAY! the day is coming and I am getting more and more gitty over it.

Time for bed, tomorrow will be a loonnnnng day!

Blessings!

So this past weekend I was a CBC and it was FABULOUS to see some of my most beloved friends. Here are some pics of my coffee date with Julie (immediately to my left and one of my bridesmaids) and Traci. We laughed about my passion party shower, I explained some of the "fun" that had happened that night. Me licking my arm and having some yummie wine!

We had our girl talk, discussed some of the ups and downs of our lives... I miss these girls SO MUCH they are so important to me, that it breaks my heart to not be there living in Abby with them. Traci was my roommate last year, and with my FINALLY being back to normal thanks to the Deprovera leaving my body (it takes 6-12 months for the side effects to leave)... I can finally have such an incredible friendship with her without my hormones getting in the way.

and of course the goofy photo, care of Julie! hahahaha.... O, and Im going to say that the Ethical Addictions (which is where we're at) is the BEST coffee shop EVER! Best americano I have ever had... O, and frapps too! Its the CBC coffee spot :)

It was also amazing to see Cam finally again after tweleve days of being apart. I know, "its just 12 days, whatever Nicole" but we did not even have communication over the phone or internet cause the White House (where he is living on campus) didn't have anything installed yet. So... I have my reasons to whine.

Just another week and a half to wait until Im back in town! I can not wait! I am super thrilled that in December that will be home for me... and then Julie and I will be doing our weekly cooking, and I will be able to have coffee on a consitent basis with Traci, O... and she can help me scrapt book. After doing those invites, I am hooked!

Here they are! Just a couple
photos of my (and some very good
friends of mine, including, most
honorning maid of honor! Nantina)
blood, sweat,and tears! But my
goodness do they every look good!
I am soooooooo happy with them.
And now I am itching to get my hands
onto the next
couple of scrapt book projects that you are going to see in the wedding! creating my own "stationary" was super important to me to bring some of my creative flare to my big day. And I am thrilled to the outcome of it all so far!

IM GOING TO CBC TONIGHT!!! yay!!! sooo excited for girls night with Traci and Julie! and then some quality time FINALLY with Cam.

WOW... I need this! :)

pics will come.. Im making sure this time that I take some!

okay... so... now tell me, isn't she the CUTEST little girl EVER! yes, yes she is... you know why? Because she is my little niece and I love her waaaay to much for words, the other little one, the little red head... isn't she just gorgeous!? Thats right because she is my OTHER adorably incredible little niece that I love more than words are able to express!

Both of these little girls are going to steal the show at my wedding! hahahaha... no matter, its okay, but they are most definitely my flower girls and they are going to look incredible in their lavender flower girl dresses that Mommy Stehr is making for them... Im psyched. Actually Michele said (mommy to little Jackie) that she might dance if we play one of the Newsboys songs for when they walk down the aisle. I am certainly contemplating trying it out! Can't you just imagine it?! Actually there is video on Mikki's blog, right hand side click on Jaclyn.

Im just posting their fabulous faces to brag... heehee! :)

I can't wait to hug them! and if Cam and I are lucky enough to produce babies that cute... wow! Im excited! hahaha...

okay... Im tired, and in need of some serious sleep, Ive been up waaaaaay too long!

Blessings to all!

O... and thanks to everyone who has complimented me on my wedding invitation, those who have received theirs! Im so glad that they are loved by all :)

here is another one of our engagement photos, I thought that I'd share them one at a time... and since Im sitting here very much missing Cam, this was my attempt to try and stop the obsessing thoughts that life is going to drastically change all in two months for me starting October.

how you might ask?
well... my surgery is the 15th, where I need to take almost a week off work to recover and be prepared. This will hopefully mean that my battle with Endometriosis will be either over completely or on the road to be over. So in a way, how do you live one day with frequent pain? Bloat? Irritability... and whatever else comes with this disease and then in a day, in a surgery... it goes away! Its been this bad for five years, and then in 6 or so weeks its going to be Poof... GONE!

next, Cindy from work is going to be leaving to have her baby, so the store and all the file responsibilities will be on Richelle and I completely. For one full year, although I feel ready for it... its still daunting.

thirdly, Im taking the most desperately needed steps to better my health. I know I say this a lot but this is serious. I don't want to mention what Im doing until my success is seen, but its going to be dramatically different... YAY!

and then... I marry the man of my dreams! I will move out of my home with my family and into an apartment with Cam in Abbotsford. I will change my last name to Stehr, and have to start grocery shopping and making dinner on a regular basis! :D
Don't get me wrong Im psyched, but its going to be very different...

another change? Im graduating CBC with a diploma, I want to go back and finish my BA and also go for a degree in nutrition. but still... I will have a college diploma people, something I never dreamed I would reach.

Lots of change to look forward to... everything good... I feel like my entire life, even my physical body is going to dramatically change. FINALLY! hahahaha...

O... THANK YOU! to everyone to came to or was involved in my passion party shower last night. I didn't take photos because honestly, the table was scandalous with all the "toys", hahahaha, it wasn't embarrassing like I thought it would be, after two glasses of wine I was laughing at everything and having a hoot! I certainly was educated.
And thank you to everyone who came and bought me presents, SO MUCH FUN! hahaha, Im sure Cam will thank you in 3 months and 2 weeks.

Okay... getting to be a little too much... better head off to bed for a snooze before work.

BLESSINGS! people... **hugz**

so today I just came back from my amazing and wonderful three night stay at CBC. it was so weird this time to walk on campus and be a commuter. I wasn't exactly a student, yet, I wasn't exactly a "visitor" either. Its my home, CBC is just as much my home as this house I am sitting in now. Its where I fell in love with the love of my life, where I started to intently learn about the God I love and serve, and where some of my most momentous growing experiences and challenges have taken place. Its the place where my professor of New Testament Theology comes up to me and gives me a hug in the halls, asks me how my wedding plans are coming along and says with the most sincere voice that he has been praying for me all summer long and is thrilled that I am finally getting the surgery I need to correct my Endometriosis. Now tell me, where else do you experience that kind of love?

Its the place where I walk up to the registration table and am greeted with a charging David Iwai who picks me up and gives me the most aggressive bear hug Ive ever had in my life! Where Traci tramples over me practically and cries, and where I walk up to the Student lounge and see the biggest smile EVER on Julie's face! With big hugs from her and Tanya! I cried when I drove away from the campus today because not only am I leaving Cam there now until our wedding day... but I am leaving my family behind. I am leaving my life there to accomplish what I need to here, in order to return there. Its crazy to think about, and Im sure my tears will flow once again before these next three and a half months are over... but boy, did I ever feel the love these past few days!

The life of a CBC student is one that I will miss once I graduate and move on, but its seriously the life and the place that I love. I LOVE being a student, I LOVE education, I LOVE psychology and religious studies. I would be a forever student and accomplish a Ph.D if I could afford the time and money.

But tomorrow, I return to IGA... and count down the days until I go back for another visit to CBC on the 13th. And today in the car home I realized that I wouldn't be able to accomplish all that needs to be accomplished if I was at CBC this semester. Its a GOOD THING that I am here in Surrey, that I am at IGA. Its the right step in the correct direction and I keep getting told that the time will fly by. Honestly, I hope so!
Now... I have showers to look forward to! Can you believe it? Nantina my maid of honor is throwing me a shower tomorrow night. Im sure I will post some pictures when I can, I am thrilled and well... will most likely be overwhelmed. But Im SO EXCITED! :)

Finally.... the invitations are in the mail, and I am going to get all the little details done and sorted out soon, and I will feel like a bride! WOW! me... a bride :)

Blessings.

cam and i got our engagement photos done a little while ago by our photographer James Moes. It was soooo much fun! and I am so thankful for how they turned out, very very pretty!

This is one of my favorites.

So, whats new lately? Cameron is heading out to CBC for school on Sunday. And Im getting really sad :'( this means that the next time we'll really get to see one another on a consistent basis will be when we have our time off for our wedding... wow! thats too far away :'( so if Im a bit cranky these next couple of months, that might be why!

Other than that, invitations are done and will be in the mail very very soon! so Im thrilled about that! it took some very thoughtful and incredible friends of mine to get them done. So THANK YOU to Nantina, Alissa, Kortney, Amy, Holly and Mandy for your help. LOOOOVe you guys! And for Nantinas mom and Heather who kept us company on Tuesday night while we took over the dining room table with our mess. Nan and I had to take two emergency Walmart runs to get enough glue to finish them! Fun times!

So... Im taking some serious steps and making some serious changes to my lifestyle and I am SUPER excited for my opportunity to step into a new kind of life and new kind of health. Please pray for strength for me to have the dedication and self control I need to succeed but I know that God will help me do so.

Well... bed and then up early, and then work!

O, one more Yay for seeing my bridesmaid Julie on Monday night SO EXCITED!!! I LOVE YOU JULIE!!! I am beyond thrilled, I haven't seen her or talked to her since April, its been very difficult. So its going to be such an emotional reunion for us once we finally get to talk. Im going to Cams friend, Mikes wedding reception and then right after we're going to CBC, I get to spend two nights at Julies place on campus and then register for my one class. Child Psychology, which Im doing through correspondence.

You know what is great though? Im graduating!!!! In december I will recieve my two year diploma in psychology (care giving and counseling) from CBC. I will get to walk the stage as Nicole Stehr in April and participate in everything graduation. I am super excited cause I thought I would have to wait a lot longer to have that opportunity. Hopefully I will get to go back and finish my BA later on.

Blessings everyone! :)

I GOT A SURGERY DATE! yay!!

I have to go in for surgery on October 15th, and I am thrilled that I will finally have some answers after this and some relief and treatment!

hurray for this intense blessing!

First off I wanted to say a HUGE thank you to all of you for your prayers and love and support, its been been amazing to be so blessed!

So.... I went into the womens health center yesterday (in the Womens hospital in Vancouver) and after they weighed me and took my height, blood pressure and pulse. I waited in the waiting room.
My mom and I were then called into another room where I told my entire five year story of pain!!!
I was then examined which was NOT comfortable, but Williams and her intern could only find what they called a "trigger spot" when they pushed on a part of my stomach and made me try and sit up, that HURT a lot!

So... whats the verdict??!!

Dr. Williams before she even examined me said that she wanted to do surgery. and then after she examined me she said again that she wants to do surgery to confirm that Endometriosis is what I have. She said that there is a 95% chance that I have it. That after going through my history she feels strongly that its Endo and the every day pain that Im describing is certainly not IBS.
She also said that after surgery, I will be feeling MUCH better! SO EXCITED for that. It will be incredible to wake up on my wedding day, slip into my sexy dress and have fun the whole day without any pain at all! I will be EXTATIC! for that.

So... I have to wait 2-5 months for surgery. She also said that I have to loose weight for the surgery which will be simply diagnostic to confirm if I do in fact have Endometriosis.

I am very nervous to go under but SUPER HAPPY that something is finally being done about it! Please continue to pray for me as this journey is definitely not over, and that I will get a surgery date as soon as possible with a quick recovery. After surgery Dr. Williams will go from there to talk treatment and so then is when the drugs (if any) would start. Right now, I just wait... again. You know, if God wants to teach me patience, he sure has through this entire experience!

Blessings! :)