I got the wedding photos! well, I only got about four hundred of the thousand that is being sent to us by mail! our day, our big day was such an incredible day, and these photos are amazing! so much better than I ever imagined. I am so thankful for all of the blessings and people who made this day happen, and made us feel more blessed than we could ever imagine!
THANK YOU! to all who have been involved in our lives, who have loved us, supported us, shared with us... thought of us. You are so appreciated, and thank you to those who came to our day, and we missed those of you who couldn't make it.

Love always! Nicole & Cam

Photographer: James Moes (HolyHolyMatrimony-http://blog.jamesmoes.com/)

I just had to add this picture! There is Nantina and I at my stagette party before I tied the knot! I have been thinking about her lately, she was my maid of honor and she is my best friend and she just visited me on Thursday at work, it was a surprise and I LOVE it when she surprises me like that. I can't wait to actually have a night out with her... sometime soon, eventually! hahah... our schedules never match, and we both can't stand the phone! I LOVE YOU NANTINA! you're the bestest ever.

okay I got the BEST NEWS EVER! yesterday...
IM GOING BE AN AUNTIE AGAIN! well... correction: There is either another niece or a new nephew on the way! Mikki is pregnant (Cams older sister) and yesterday she called and I was screaming (well not literally) I am SO EXCITED for her, and Scott and Jackie. so CONGRATS to you guys! and yay for a new baby in the family! And Mikki you HAVE to keep me updated with everything, miss you :'(

in other news:
I got my hair cut. FINALLY! short hair again. Its cute though, and I love the change, I really needed it. My long hair was getting so gross and annoying, always in knots and always dry. ewwww!

Work is work lately, Im getting tired, and its getting harder for me to be there... but Im very thankful for the job during this recession, I am very thankful that God has blessed us with finances coming in. Please continue to pray for my parents, my father was laid off... as well the entire Vancouver Nokia department that he was involved in, he is passionately looking for work with nothing promising. Its a very scary time for our family but PRAISE GOD that my parents Surrey home was sold! :D and the best family bought it, we love that we were able to give over the keys to them.

I think I really need a night out tonight, some girl time and a hug.

Blessings!

O... and I still don't have the wedding photos yet, they are coming! And once James emails me the website I will post some!

so one of the goals I have as a housewife is to be the best cook I can be! My grandmother, Linda Wittrien was the BEST at everything she did in the kitchen. Its unforunate that I was too young to appreciate her recipies before she died, but her cooking was literally the best around and she always had the itch to host. My mother, while we were all youngsters, would host bible studies and dinners all the time. Her simplistic recipies always had people coming back for more. So for myself? I want to be the place that everyone is eager to come for dinner, or dessert. I want to learn to cook from scratch, and to cook well.

I don't exactly want to create my own dishes and test them out. But I do want to learn how to make the best roasted chicken dinner, the best roast, the best mac n' cheese, the best chocolate cookies, the best sangrias. I want to learn to cook for those I love and host christmases, holidays and just "saturday night dinners" because I can!

Tonight, for the first time I had some friends over for dinner... what was on the menu? ceaser salad, garlic bread and a home-made three cheese pasta bake or aka. mac n' cheese fancy style! Everyone kept going for seconds and kept complimenting me on my cooking, so it must have been good! :)

One of my most favorite things is cooking for those I love. So when Im home, I always ask Cam if he wants something to eat, because making him food is one of my favorite things to do. And most of the time Im not even interested in eating what Im making. Im more interested that other people will like it!

Next thing Im making... Beef stew with biscuits, butter chicken and waffles... all made from scratch!
I already perfected sangrias, pizza dough and mac n' cheese!

O... and I want to make the best cheesecake too!
if you have any recipe suggestions for me, please comment and let me know!

too bad I missed a picture of my meal... it was gone before I remembered to bring down the camera!

okay... so people have been bugging me to see some wedding photos. Unfortunately I have not recieved them yet, but Im not bugging James for them either. He's the pro, he'll get them to me when he does, and well... he has lots and lots of weddings to do lately anyways. He is an up-and-comer photographer that I would recommend to anyone in a heartbeat for any occasion. He was like another friend at the wedding instead of a photographer and he was with us for TWELEVE hours! literally from start to finish, he got to Cams house for 9am for "getting ready" photos and then left once every guest was gone and the chairs were being stacked. Talk about a guy who loves to get involved. He even suffered through soaked through shoes to give me his gum boots so that I wouldn't cry any longer, the wind chill on my feet and sore toe was brutal and so I had Trevor hold me up, Nantina kept my dress out of the snow... and James was taking photos of it all! It was great and sooo comical. There were tonz of photos with my broken toe nail.
It was halarious though, James comes to do photos at the house and I yell at him "James! I tore off my toe nail!" and he says back to me "don't worry! I'll photoshop it back on!"

so here is a sneak peek from photos that have been posted on facebook, which I love! :)


okay so I guess I'll tell the story!
I was up at 7am on my wedding morning, and my mom and I the previous day did a quick costco shop for some yummy breakfast food because Steph & her friend were coming over to do our hair and makeup (so nice to have them come to the house!) everyone else as well was coming for 7:30am too. So to help my mom out, I decided to clear off the island in the middle of the kitchen. Since we're still getting used to the new house, I opened up the door to the mud room a little harder than needed, and without realising were my foot was I "stubbed" my big toe, only to realise that it hurt A LOT more than just a little harsh tap. I actually tore off my big toe nail, gross huh? I fell to the floor and noticed that the nail wanted to come off and it was bleeding like mad. I called my parents and my dad, shaking his head could only exclaim. "NICOLE ELISABETH!" He calls this my last "kroeker klux move". haahaha... Im sure that there will be more "Stehr cluxy moves". However, I feel that this was, although a sucky thing that happened a really obvious reminder to me to give up control and allow the day to happen the way it was meant to and let myself be pampered and taken care of without trying to step in and take over. I didn't feel it all day long, Im serious! The whole wedding it didn't phase me. Until Cam and I left the reception and my foot thawed out in the car under the heater. I started crying and it throbbed, so we went to Walmart for supplies for the honeymoom. Now, its fine! :)


Some before ceremony fun! Cam and I had met before the wedding ceremony started, in our own private meet with just James, his co-worker (our photographers) and Trevor (cams best man) It was such a brilliant idea. Because we did most of our photography before the ceremony... and then could enjoy our entire reception and "in between" time, before ceremony time, practically the entire day together! The first thing that Cam said as he walked up towards me by the barn? OOOO mercy! :D He was thrilled.



Family photos! I almost cried while standing there at the ceremony... my mother mouthed to me "I love you" thats what made me almost loose it. My brothers were groomsmen and cams sisters were bridesmaids (and his brother a groomsman as well) it was the best decision to have our families involved.


Dad was super emotional... but very very sweet! Our dance will forever be such a fond memory of my big day, I can't wait for those photos.


Yay! we're married!!!!! I was looking at Nantina right here... she was instructing me where to go and what to do.. hahaah, apparently I wasn't paying attention at rehersal.

Okay... now I can finally update you on the honeymoon. As you know, we went to the Caribbean... the Dominican Republic to be more specific. And it was so gorgeous, bright, hot and pretty. We did not want to leave, although the food sucked (seriously sucked!) the rest of the resort was magnificent! My husband did such a fantastic job, looking for, finding and booking this insane place for our honeymoon. Our room? the closest you can get to the beach without being apart of the time shares offered. And Cameron up graded our account to "privilege" which was fantastic.

What was halarious though is that because of my ripping my big toe nail off my foot on my wedding day morning (entirely different story all together) we couldn't do any of the "water tours" cause of my open wound and the salt water. So... we took most of that saved money for the tour and put it into tipping the employees of the resort like crazy! (the people there make less than $30 a month) so the "housekeeper" kept coming in at like 9am every morning. And because of the time change (they are 4 hours ahead) our sleeping patterns were OFF! and well... ummm... well, you get it.

But seriously, white sandy beaches, staying in my swimsuit all day, tanning!, swimming (while I swam in the pool with tonz of tape on my toe to keep the nail on) Cam swam in the ocean with seriously blueish green waters. And we had employees come up to us in broken english (they speak Spanish) and asked us what we wanted to drink, so margaritas & pinacoladas for me, beer for Cam! soooo much fun!

Our plane was delayed though coming home we were supposed to leave DR time 11:25pm, but didn't actually leave until 2:30pm DR time. 8 & 1/2 hour flight and landed here in Vancouver at 7am BC time. To what? SNOW! lots and lots and lots of snow. My parents picked us up to take us to the Ens place for our car (they were so nice to let us leave it there and skip paying to leave it at the airport). We were then told that the Kroeker Christmas was canceled and other family members on the Stehr side were either delayed big time going back home or had to stay in BC for Christmas! WOW! while we relaxed on the beach, Vancouver was having the worst winter on record.

We couldn't have picked a better date for our big day. The whole day was clear & sunny with lots of hard snow on the ground, so the photos will be incredible. wind chill of -13 though! eeeekkk.... that was "interesting" to say the least, I did end up wearing gum boots (my photographers even!) SO MUCH FUN! I kept saying all day that Jesus loves me lots and lots because every single day for months I was praying for a clear sunny day and snow on the ground. Then that night about an hour after guests started to leave, it started to blizzard & snow! sooo pretty and perfect :)

I will blog about the big day soon... garanteed. But now I need to figure out what to make for dinner, cookies and M&M's just don't do it for me. .

Loves, hugz and blessings!


Our pretty resort, yes, this picture was taken from our room balcony! amazing right?


So this is the pool... ah yes, relaxing was wonderful!


Do we look like we just got married?! :D

hello all! so... we finally have internet! and we're finally back in Canada! the wedding? AMAZING! seriously, the best and everything I ever wanted. I will be posting pictures once I get them. I will posting an update soon too! but married life is seriously THE BEST!!!! I LOVE my husband so much, and doing laundry, cleaning the kitchen, its so much fun.... because its MY house, that makes all the difference in the world.
we got lots of kitchen toys too as presents, man did we get SPOILED rotten!

better go... grocery list is growing and we only have cookies in the house to eat. Yay! grocery shopping, my favorite. O, and Ive already been to Costco which is so much more fun when you have a spouse next to ya.

Blessings! and more to come, I promise.

so... its been a while! so sorry for the delay in postings... its been a crazy life these days, but SO MUCH FUN! as well. Cam has delighted me by reminding me what is most important right now, and thats my health, and not the perfection of "little details" but just the relaxation of enjoying this time and the chaotic wonderful that comes with it!
so what have I been up to lately!?
Last week, on the 4th there was the CBC Christmas Banquet. I thankfully got the Thursday and Friday off, which was so wonderful! so I showed up on campus on Wednesday night after my shift and crashed at the ladies place of 621 Medowoods. (thanks girls!). And then the next morning was up and refreshed to get the keys to OUR PLACE! yipppeeee... Cam and I went in with the manager, did our inspection, paid our first months rent and then he left. We were sitting on the ground to our what will soon be "living room" and just realised what had happened. Hahahahaha... it was such a wonderfully surreal moment. I loved it! forever will I remember that. We picked spaces for his desk, our tv, our soon to be bought couch, and our kitchen table. Its going to be so MUCH FUN! Then it was Christmas banquet, I was over and Julies place getting ready... and there we were, all pretty and eating a wonderful turkey dinner. It was such a great time. Then bowling afterwards, where I BEAT CAM! yipppeeee.... and I did it just at the last second too... the last round, he was a little sad, but I told him that he has the rest of his life to try and take me down! hahaha... Then I went back home on Friday with Cam... to Langley where my parents moved into their new house! SO PRETTY! I love this new house, we then went out and met our officiant and his wife (Eric and Mary Ens) in Delta for dinner and then came back to Langley. Saturday was work for me which was actual such a great shift, then Sunday MY SHOWER! SOOOOO much fun, there was like over 20 people and I got sooo spoiled! Like seriously spoiled, I was soooo surprised. I felt loved beyond all else, and had such a hoot. THANK YOU EVERYONE! Now... eleven days left until my big day. I just keep waking up with a grin on my face :D I am sooo excited, and so blessed and soooo psyched for life forever with my Cameron.

Thank you to all who have been praying for us, and who have been praying for me and my stress levels, I am at the point (with lots of help from Cam) to accept things the way they will turn out. The most important thing is that Cam and I are getting married, that on the 20th we say "i do" and exchange rings, kiss and are forever one. Thats the most important and most incredible thing, so if the programs don't get done, or the table stands, or my schedule does not go "as planned" its okay... because I will still be Mrs. Stehr by 2pm on the 20th of December and thats what I have been waiting for! :D

Blessings!!!

I feel sooo overwhelmed by wedding details, O MY GOODNESS there are sooo many things to consider, I feel like something that we think is concrete just all the sudden works out horribly and needs to be re-planned. eeeekkkk!!!!...

Then there is the dreaded list of to-dos which doesn't seem to get smaller, my child psychology stuff and work still.
And not everyone has RSVP'd so although I was supposed to have everyone tell me no or yes by November 1st, its the 17th and I am still waiting on replies!
GRRRRRrrrrr.....

Im going to sleep now!

CAM AND I GOT A PLACE!

yippeeee... its a loft in the apartment complex that we were both dying to get into. we have laundry in our loft, and its like a house cause it has its own entrance and all... its in one of the townhome buildings and Im sooo excited to decorate it!

One bedroom, one bath and the cutest little kitchen. Its perfect for our first place!

what an answer to prayer :)

literally, i feel like superwoman right now. its not that i have tights on with an estranged need to fly... but that i feel like i have conquered such a horror in my life and that i have come up ontop, skinny style! hahaha...

ive lost a total of twenty pounds in the past two months. i don't mean to brag, and its not about bragging at all, its not about "o look im getting skinny" its about the incredible accomplishment of kicking enemy endo butt and how SureSlim (the program im on) has been such an incredible tool in the process of it all. so seriously, if anyone of you is looking for a way to get healthy, this program is amazing!

but its not even about the program, my friend Jared is over at my house with my brothers playing video games all last night and today! its such a hoot when Jared comes over and soon he s moving to Aussie so it was imperrative that he come soon, so we made sure that we went out and did something last night, and well us Kroekers love to eat so... we went to Olive Garden, we drank and we were merry! (brandon drove home). but after the meal, after the dessert, after the fun... and back at home with guys around me playing video games until five in the morning, i didn't feel anything. NOT A THING! in my precious little tummy of mine. its like Dr Williams took a magic wand and made all the horror of the past five years vanish. its as though the memories of sitting in the pantry and crying because there was nothing for me to eat without pain never actually occured. the pantry is not a vortex of death, it doesn't matter anymore.

three months ago, if i was going to have that awesome night of carboydrate fun with the guys, i would bloat so bad my pants wouldn't fit and i would immediately need either a sweater or sweat pants, i would complain of horrendous cramping pain and i would have it all for at least two days, followed with what my docs called "terminal constipation" i would have to spend the night tossing and turing from the cramps, drink masses amounts of herbal teas and use hot water bottles to ease the discomfort. all that agony over one bowl of pasta and some bread sticks! sometimes, i would even get the pain from a bowl of salad!!! i would also gain at least five pounds from the experience. no wonder i gave up on food choices and let go, huh?

its incredible how such a small procedure has now fixed all of that, and how such a small mishap in my reproductive organs could have caused such agony for so long. I am SO BLESSED! beyond what i ever could have imaged to be cured the way that i have and to have such incredible friends and family around me in the process. im still on the SureSlim program, its helping with making me feel completely transformed and completely different from that girl that went into the surgery centre almost a month ago. Seriously people, i came out different... endo free, and i am super excited!
and all in time for my wedding, woot woot! :)

Blessings.

hey everyone!

lots has been happening, work is great! I am really enjoying the file work, even when its unbelievably stressful, but it makes work and life always interesting. Keeps me on my toes!

wedding stuff! O my goodness, six weeks on Saturday and its HERE! eeeekkk... so very excited. Everything is coming together, I have things running through my head constantly, new things to do and reminders to book last minute details. I am thrilled with the outcome, its going to be better than I am expecting I think :)

Prayer request please!
Cam is looking for an apartment in Abbotsford, and we thought we got one, we were already to make the payment and sign the papers when it came back that the guy promised it to us a little too soon.. and needs to go through head office to confirm that its alright to offer to us. So.. what seemed like such a blessing and such a for sure thing is becoming more stress than needed. Please pray that if its Gods will that we can have this apartment, it has laundry, its in our price range, two bedrooms and its huge! I would looove to spend my first months as a married couple in that apartment.

As well, please keep praying for our house to sell. The market out there is not nice right now and my parents are feeling the effects. Its really scary and we just desperately want a sold sticker out on that sign.

thanks for the prayers and support,

Blessings!

ps. I am feeling fantastic lately! :)
mom even mentioned today that I haven't been complaining about pain at all anymore, which is because I don't have it anymore. PRAISE THE LORD that this healing has taken place, it was a long road, but it was definitely worth it!!
As well, I am back on my program and shed another five pounds this week. yipppeee...

woot woot... I can eat food with no pain!
life is FANTASTIC! Praise the Lord!

I feel as though the surgery has been this one overwhelming step in the right direction, although it feels like it NEVER happened, more like a dream, a very surreal experience. I am very cautious of how I am now, I am not expecting anything from this surgery except to feel exactly the same because if I expect anything other than that, and nothing changes, then at least I am not disappointed.

I need to take a step back and evaluate what happened, how I really feel and as soon as the after pains of surgery fade away, then I get to discover this "new me" that I hope gets to emerge. I hope that I start to love my body again, I hope I start to respect myself and the goals I wish to set out for me. I feel that I can close my eyes and see the place that I wish to be... the healthy place but it seems almost impossible to get there. BA!

But for now, I need to stay away from the mountains of Halloween candy thats filling my moms pantry... eeekk... I could really go for a m&m peanut right now :P

I just wanted to say a HUGE thanks to everyone who have been so supportive, loving, and incredibly encouraging and just wonderful this past week. I have received four flower arrangements! which was completely unexpected... visits from countless people, emails, comments on my blog and phone calls that unfortunately, most of the time I was either sleeping through or unable to get off the couch to answer. I appreciate EVERYTHING... its overwhelming me!
I am healing nicely... although I am still very bloated (I was just able to do up a pair of my pants today) and I am still in pain, I am confident that in a couple of weeks I'll be back to fully normal. However, I am unable to pick up anything heavy for a month! And I am not allowed to exert myself... I will do my best, and get lots of rest after my shifts at work this week ( I go back tomorrow) I know that in good time I will be 100% back to normal.

I am meeting with Dr. Williams in a month to discuss the results of the surgery, how I am feeling and some other things. I am eager to go over my photos and see for myself what they mean and what happened from her perspective.

Although I did nothing today, I am exhausted! :P I better go to bed... its still a challenge to sleep and I am to be up nice and early for work in the morning, its going to be wonderful to finally get out of this house and walking around again!

Blessings! and LOTS of thanks! :)

So... yesterday was surgery day! I got up at 9am just starving cause your bowels need to be empty, along with your stomach for the procedure. We left at 10am, Cam came and brought me some flowers and an autographed photo of Starfield from his trip to the youth convention on the weekend. It was really sweet of him :)

We all piled into the CRV (my parents and Cam and I) and then headed out to the Ambulatory Surgical Centre in downtown Vancouver, across the street from the St. Pauls Hosptial. I was nervous and in sweatpants and a sweat shirt. We got there early and hung out in the waiting room for just about an hour before they called my name. I then left my support team and went into a very nice room with a tv, my hospital gown & robe and waited another two hours or so. I had the sweetest nurse come into my room about a hour before they lead me into the operating room as they called it. She was soooo sweet and kind, asking me some questions while taking my heart rate. Then about a half hour from when she was in my room the anistetic guy came in and gave me the run down of what was going to take place when I got in the operating room. He was joky and fun! Talked fast though and realised that I was a little nervous. So.. a few minutes after he left I was lead down the hall by my first nurse to the operating room. I was helped up onto the table, and was given my IV which hurt the most out of everything that happened. It was fun though cause the guy that gave it to me kept me laughing and comfortable, after he put it in, to distract me from the sharp pain he said "look up here, do you see lots of medical shows? isn't this about the time when they play the dramatic music?"referring to the part of the IV that drips. And then he said things like "see, that didn't hurt so bad right? well... it didn't hurt me!" and then I said "well we don't want that!" hahaahah...
But then after a couple meds he put in my IV which stung! my nurse said "now you're going to be getting some oxygen through a mask... have you had that before?" And the moment I said no, I was out! I didn't even get to count back or forward like everyone says they get to while they're being put under, the next thing I remember is being in a different room, in the warmest blanket ever! Drifting in and out of sleep.
BUT... Dr. Williams did come to my side and grabed my hand and said that indeed IT WAS ENDO!!! And that there was lots! Majority of it on my right side and some on my left. I even have four incesions, two on my right, one on my left and one in my belly button. But I am soooo thrilled that this is exactly what this was. And that its all gone! the moment she told me it was Endo, that there was lots and that she took it all out, I cried...I just bawled cause the relief knowing that was just so overwhelming.
Now... it feels like someone has hit me in my stomach! hahahaa.. Im sore, and the gas they pumped in me for surgery hurts still, my shoulders and chest. Im afraid to sleep on my side, but I slept practically all of yesterday, I couldn't keep awake. It was actually kinda funny yesterday cause they had two nurses try and get me out of my bed cause I couldn't stand properly, and my mom had to help me change, I feel back asleep when the nurse was explaining to mom what my photos were about... heehee. poor her cause my photos are pics of my endo and where it was that she removed it from. They aren't pretty.
Great news!? The greatest there is?
The Endo was NOT on my fallopian tubes, nor was it on my ovaries or my cul-d-sac which means from my understanding that there really shouldn't be any reason for me to have trouble getting pregnant once Cam and I want babies, so my eyes just brightened up, and honestly so did Cams when I was told that. Now, the treatment is birth control, but I can for sure deal with that, and I see Dr. Williams in four weeks for a follow up where I have many questions for her.

And its been sooo sweet, Alissa visited me with flowers yesterday which was suuuuuper nice of her, and Kortney wants to come over today as well to say hi. My aunt and uncle are planning to come this weekend as well to visit.
I can't say enough thankyous to all who have prayed for me, phoned me, emailed me, facebooked me... Its been incredibly overwhelming to know how many people have cared about me so much these past couple of days in regards to my surgery.
THANK YOU SO MUCH! From the bottom of my heart!
Everything went well, so much better than I could have imagined... praise God! :)

okay... so is it bad that i want babies?

hahahaah... before you answer, let me explain, i was out today with my good friend kortney who is very pregnant (sorry kort, but its cute!) and then there my good friend becky who is also super pregnant (i know becky doesn't read this so i don't need to apologize but shes cute too!). so at starbucks today there was this ADORABLE little toddler Trinity running around the place and then another very new baby boy in another womans arms just beside Kort and i and then i started thinking. Wow!... that'll be kort in December, and then... in a couple years, that will be me. and in the midst of the cute kid running around and all the pregnancy happening in that little starbucks today i said outloud... I WANT KIDS! and i do... not tomorrow (well, not December) already but definitely in at least two years, or three!

another great thing about getting together with Kort today... the stress level about the surgery went down, waaaaay down. and although Alissa who is a nurse and has been coaching me to not stress about this surgery has helped, and Amy who has forced me to promise chanting the phrase "i will be fine! i will be fine" each day every day... has helped. knowing that Kort has gone through it and that it truly is "not a big deal" has helped enourmously. So I am planning to speed through my file day tomorrow and Sunday. Eat the most fantastic Thanksgiving meal of my life on Sunday night, and then work another quick day Monday. And not fret about my surgery after that.

I promise myself that I will not fret... and I am seriously understanding the concept of handing over all control to God, and if you knew me, like really knew me, you would know how hard that can be for me.
**deep breath**

blessings!

so... it has become evident that I am stressing out WAAAAAY too much. Especially when I go out for coffee with one of my good friends, Amy. And then she tells me to cool down and give it all to God, etc... then I come home and once checking my email have a biiiig one in my inbox from my fiance telling me the exact same thing!

I think God is using some of my most trusted friends/family to give me a message. And the message is?

TURN IT OVER ALREADY! and start breathing properly.

Actually, my stress has become so much that Im getting such bad migraine headaches and a year ago I wasn't getting any at all. As well, Im having a hard time breathing properly because I have so much anxiety. Its not good, its kinda scary when your deep breaths don't feel like deep breaths at all, and when there is intense pressure in your chest cavity.

I think that being stress free is of high importance right now... so I may have to start locking myself up in my house and on my bed for rest, and start dedicating time to serious prayer and take LOTS of bubble baths... if anyone has bubble bath to donate I am for sure able to take it off your hands!

Blessings to all...

at least I got a lot of wedding planning done! whew!

So I really should be in bed right now... Im exhausted and super hungry and need to be up early tomorrow because part of my new food plan is a weigh in every Tuesday morning. NOT looking forward to it. I don't think, well I KNOW that I didn't do well this week :'(
I think my stress is just up (when isn't it?) and cravings are really hard to overcome sometimes! But I know that this is just all apart of the process and there will be a time when I will take steps back but I can't obsess over everything.

EDIT: the weigh in today was SO GOOD! Ive lost 15lbs in total in the past 4 weeks! and Ive lost 6 inches, and 2% of my body fat! woot woot! Im definitely on track :D

I accomplished SO MUCH of my wedding planning today! It was fabulous! I went and saw my florist Esther, we decided on the entire floral department of the wedding. Its going to look incredible! Soooo much floral in the wedding, Im very excited! And... then mom and I took a trip out to Abby, picked up Cam quickly and headed off to meet with our decor lady. We talked all decor for the reception site and its going to look INCREDIBLE! Im telling you... super elegant. Im giddy just thinking about it.

But can you believe it? We're in October already! In 8 days Im having my surgery and then once Im recovered and back to work its TWO MONTHS! before the wedding... that means it'll be November and then BANG! its December and I'll be a Mrs. It just hit me last night as I laid in bed. But now that two of the most important aspects of the wedding are planned and taken care of. I am breathing all that much more better... and I even finished an aspect of our guest book, and started working on prepping the table numbers.

Im thrilled with what we have planned out... I can't imagine my wedding any other way than the way its coming about. This truly is my dream wedding! YAY!

Okay.. bed finally.. and one last important note:

IF YOU HAVEN'T RSVP'd TO MY WEDDING AND YOU GOT AN INVITATION
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE
RSVP SOON!

thank-you! :)

wow you guys! If you look at my tickers, things are starting to sneak up on me! and well, the stress of all of it is taking a toll and translating into massive migraine headaches. NO FUN! but its good, Im taking care of it with some R&R and some good quality God time.
Pretty much I suck it up and keep on trucking along.

Im going to CBC again this weekend, I am so very excited to see Cam again, its been waaay too long. And I get to see Traci, and Julie and Dave. Some of my most beloved friends!

I tried on my wedding dress on Tuesday, and it was PERFECT it IS perfect just absolutely wonderful. I am so excited to wear that dress on my big day. With my veil, my shoes and all. YAY! the day is coming and I am getting more and more gitty over it.

Time for bed, tomorrow will be a loonnnnng day!

Blessings!

So this past weekend I was a CBC and it was FABULOUS to see some of my most beloved friends. Here are some pics of my coffee date with Julie (immediately to my left and one of my bridesmaids) and Traci. We laughed about my passion party shower, I explained some of the "fun" that had happened that night. Me licking my arm and having some yummie wine!

We had our girl talk, discussed some of the ups and downs of our lives... I miss these girls SO MUCH they are so important to me, that it breaks my heart to not be there living in Abby with them. Traci was my roommate last year, and with my FINALLY being back to normal thanks to the Deprovera leaving my body (it takes 6-12 months for the side effects to leave)... I can finally have such an incredible friendship with her without my hormones getting in the way.

and of course the goofy photo, care of Julie! hahahaha.... O, and Im going to say that the Ethical Addictions (which is where we're at) is the BEST coffee shop EVER! Best americano I have ever had... O, and frapps too! Its the CBC coffee spot :)

It was also amazing to see Cam finally again after tweleve days of being apart. I know, "its just 12 days, whatever Nicole" but we did not even have communication over the phone or internet cause the White House (where he is living on campus) didn't have anything installed yet. So... I have my reasons to whine.

Just another week and a half to wait until Im back in town! I can not wait! I am super thrilled that in December that will be home for me... and then Julie and I will be doing our weekly cooking, and I will be able to have coffee on a consitent basis with Traci, O... and she can help me scrapt book. After doing those invites, I am hooked!

Here they are! Just a couple
photos of my (and some very good
friends of mine, including, most
honorning maid of honor! Nantina)
blood, sweat,and tears! But my
goodness do they every look good!
I am soooooooo happy with them.
And now I am itching to get my hands
onto the next
couple of scrapt book projects that you are going to see in the wedding! creating my own "stationary" was super important to me to bring some of my creative flare to my big day. And I am thrilled to the outcome of it all so far!