yesturday night was a good night... an email that i was nervous to read came, and came with such encouragement and love. something that i needed to hear was said, and Gods grace was once again very present among me. I am so thankful, so blessed, so overwhelmed with the love that surrounds me... PRAISE GOD! yes, praise God once again!
I now realise that fear is something that Im creating in myself... that its something that doesnt need to take hold of me, its nothing to grasp, and only something to push aside. to shout "you do not have a hold on me! for I belong to Christ!" I just wanna keep kicking it in the bum! hahah...
with that email came a quote
"dont tell God how big your problems are, tell your problems how big your God is"
thats right....
tell the problems in my life that they dont stand a chance against my almighty God! a God that loves with such incredible and strong love.... you know, I know that before I wasnt allowing love in... not Gods love, not love from someone special, until yesturday i finally realised what I was doing, the fear I had was paralyzing me from accepting love into my heart. In fear that it will be discarded. I dont want to be that fearful again... i only want to grasp hold of what has been given! so.. even if life happens (and it will) things will come, pain will be inevitable, but joy and true happiness will also happen and i know that God will lead me through both the bad and the very very good! so... Yay! :)

hahaha... GOD YOU ARE SOOO GOOD! THANK YOU SOOOOO MUCH!!! :) Amen.