Dearest one,

Your due date is coming up soon and I feel not quite myself, like a part of me is missing. Like at any moment the sadness could consume me again. You were desperately wanted, anticipated and loved in that month we knew about you and you continue to be longed for. I'm more than ready to move on, more than ready to pick up the pieces and walk forward. I look at your tree and I smile, continuing to wonder who you could have been. What life would be like if you were here to make your mark on the world.

I'm sad that my belly is empty without you. And I'll cry tears of despair on May 28th, in deep desire for you. But I know that everything is going to be okay. I know that this is the way God intended it to be. And I am thankful.