This is my friend Kortney Story with her husband Jordon. I actually stole this photo from her facebook photo album, but I wanted to share some exciting news with you guys because I am SUPER excited and happy for her and well, right now it feels like this is happening to so many of my friends.

KORTNEY IS FOUR MONTHS PREGNANT!

She just found out last Tuesday because well, like me (well still "maybe" for me), but she has Endometriosis and has been on hormone treatment for the past two years. Which means she had no idea this was happening even though she was super sick all the time. She figured it was morning sickness. SO... Both Becky and Kortney are pregnant, which means two brand-new babies at my wedding (hopefully!) WOW! a whole new kind of role now, a new kind of "time" of life now that its happening where married friends start having babies.
I told Kort on the phone today "I want a baby!" and its true, I do... but most definitely not right away, although if it was to happen right away I would still be thrilled!

What makes me really hopeful knowing that Kort got pregnant? That it can happen for me too... you see with Endo, you read stats that say that 40% of those with Endo are infertile. And although I refuse to believe that for myself, there is that high possibility of it happening. Even the thought of your chances rising that high that you may not be able to carry children... it makes one who has a great hope to be a mother, feel desperately saddened. I mourned that statistic until I got up one day and talked to Cam and decided that wasn't going to be me. But still... I am hopeful that a fellow Endo patient got to conceive because I have read of many who haven't.
and even if Endo isn't my problem, I still feel exactly the same way!

so... CONGRATS KORTNEY AND JORDON, you are both going to make excellent parents! :)

Blessings everyone!

Although I have a crazy sinus headache that kills!... Life is FANTASTIC! Just thought I'd share, I have some good time off next week which I plan to use to see my Cameron and spend some quality time with mom, and hopefully some other wonderful people, get my room packed up and move upstairs (switching with Brandon) and hopefully get some color and a good tan started for the honeymoon! (yah right!)

Love you all... THANKS FOR MY BIRTHDAY CARD JULIE! I LOVE YOU FRIEND.

Blessings! and a happy hot weekend to all, I will be enjoying most of mine in IGA but Im more than okay with it.

I feel like I have some crazy news to share with you... but then when I think about what it was I wanted to share, for the life of me I can't think of it. Hmmm... strange isn't it?! I get to see Cam tomorrow so I am thrilled, its been a week and a half that he has been at camp doing his staff training and I kinda feel bad for the guy because it is his last staff training, he isn't going to be doing full summers at Stillwood from now on. We just won't be able to swing it for him to be at camp for 10 weeks out of the summer and well, when it comes to marriage, I don't want to be apart for 10 full weeks. Nor could I stay at Stillwood for 10 weeks with him while he does it. So... he is saying so long to Stillwood and I can only imagine how hard that will be for him. This is his 7th summer doing the job.

I have started to research more about Endometriosis in my spare time. I want to get more of a grasp as to how the disease works and what I could do now that I am waiting for my doctors appointment. Once again I stumbled across a web site that seems to be very informative and helpful. Its not my goal to scare myself, but it is more my goal to give myself a basic understanding of what I may be up against. I don't want to see Doctor Williams in August and have no clue as to what she is saying to me or have no clue what kinds questions she would be asking me.
I have found though that a seriously restricted diet is basically the best thing for me. Its very very hard, but with basic experience I have found that it works, especially in these past couple of weeks I ate really well one week and the second not so well. In the second week I was sick literally every day with cramping and other pain. It was horrible. Now in my third week I am back on the eating plan and already feeling much better.
There is something wrong, bodies don't just hurt for no reason.

More wedding things are getting accomplished! The dresses are ordered HORRAY! and the mens tuxes are ordered as well DOUBLE HORRAY! such a stress relief for me.. the dresses will most likely be in for September which gives so much time before the wedding to get them altered and the tuxes will be ready for pick up the day before the wedding. woot woot! Even my dress should be in by September! SO excited to put my dress on and cry.

Nothing really new otherwise, just the same old. I have the next two days off work, which will be nice. And then back to work! Im really loving the file...

Blessings, Im getting my hair cut in the morning and so Im excited for the new change.

there are SO many people that I miss right now in life. like seriously miss, like aching in my gut miss. i miss Cam mostly at this moment its just too hard to be away from someone you love, and i know im being over dramatic and pathetic, especially since i know someone who is thousands of miles away from her fiance. but distance is still distance and being away from the one you love and not being able to be with them the way you want, in waiting for marriage, hanging out with them all the time and just having that closeness in relationship that you're just months, weeks, days away from is daunting, frustrating and exhausting at times. **sigh**

but not just that, i miss hanging out at school with my most dearest friends, i miss julie, i miss amber & traci, i miss dave (believe it or not!) i miss maren, carlene, heidi, tanya, holly, kendra. i miss walking into the guys place next door and awkwardly opening up the door without knocking to find one of them either in a towel or many of them walking around in boxers or no shirt! these wonderful friends made life super interesting and always fun!
i miss my sisters in law (to be) jen and michele, and the incredible relationship i already have with them... i miss my nieces (their daughters) i want to play with them and hug them and be the super cool aunt who plays barbies and sneaks them treats!

i miss my old gracepoint days when i would see nantina, alissa & amy all the time! that was so much fun... now i hardly get to see them.

why all the sudden the missing of close individuals? because i spent my day with Becky today, and it was SO MUCH FUN! but having that day with her today made me realise how much i miss my days with all of my other super close friends and how much i miss my coffee dates, curb side guy chats (julie!) and park walks. how i miss staying up until 2am studying for a final the next morning and how much i hate that life moves on in small ways making it impossible to see everyone all the time.
i miss seeing Kortney for neighborhood walks, and bugging my guy friends mat & kevin. or living beside kailee.

but seeing becky today, my amazing, pregnant, halariously encouraging friend... made me realise again all the wonderful things that i get to look forward to in regards to getting married, eventually starting a family and taking new steps in my life in different directions than some of these friends and that its okay.
Some of these friends are at the same place as me, some just got married, others been married for a while and one (becky) is having her first child. So i have so many more great adventures and talks with them... so many more coffee dates, child play dates, wedding parties and just plain curb side conversations to have. and I am THRILLED that each and every one of these people understand that life moves on and relationships can continue to flourish and grow in situations which change all the time.

THANK YOU MY FRIENDS, for being such extrodinary people!
I LOVE YOU! **Hugz**

blessings to all.

hello all! I found a new really neat wedding website page... I absolutely LOVE it and have fiddled aroud with it tonight to put if up and have it running. Its so much fun this kinda stuff... anyways, its on the right hand side, the wedding website link.

Camy loves Colie

and then I added my blog that is attached to this site in my "blogs to read" section

When a Frog and a Stare collide

I hope you all enjoy!

Cam is gone this week for camp, which means no communication of any kind until he is back. I HATE this, I need him really bad this week, Im having such a hard time without him. And I miss him super much :'( I might be a bit of a baby this time, but seriously you guys, I have my reasons.

Blessings!

this picture i found on my parents camera which was lost for several months, its another one of our pictures that was taken on the day we got engaged back on Feb 16th. its overwhelming to me how much love there is between Cam and i, we have grown together extraordinarily. and are blessed beyond what i think we both thought possible. things are just falling into place so perfectly that i don't believe anything else but the divine had His hand upon us. the difference though between Cam and me?! he is SUPER patient, like if he had a super power it would be his capacity to be crazy patient. thats just who he is, and i admire it because i am NOT in the least bit patient at all. and since falling in love with Cam i have noticed that more about myself. so now...as you can see from my count down, there is just a tiny bit more than 6 months until our wedding and im going NUTS! i want to get married, live with him, cook for him, have my own home, be with my husband. thats just the life i truly want to live and i want to live it yesterday! BAAAAA!!!!! grrrrrrr.... at least Cam knows my unpaitent self and keeps me calmed down.

on another note... I GOT MY SPECIALIST APPOINTMENT FINALLY BOOKED TODAY! The anticipated date is August 15th! and its about the same level of importance to me to count down as my wedding day. No joke! On my break today at work I practically broke down and cried in the staff room because I read a text message from my mom that I got an appointment booked and that there was a mix up with our mailing address that caused them to think I chose not to take their help when in reality I was all upset that they weren't calling me. They were anticipating me to call them since MARCH! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!!! MARCH FOR CRYING OUT LOUD! BAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!! I could seriously kick my doctors office in the butt! or rip out my hair!
But Im just thankful that things are finally and I mean FINALLY getting sorted out, its been 5 years, I deserve some answers. Im nervous cause its still cutting it kinda close to the wedding date, but Im sure things are going to work out just fine. Im confident that God has His divine hand in the midst of it all. I just don't want to be a grumpy/hormonal/piece of work on my wedding day or honeymoon due to hormone treatment... **fingers crossed** for Cam in particular! :)

But seriously... PRAISE GOD!
Blessings to all!

ps. work is FANTASTIC! and Richelle the girl Im working file with is wonderful, I really appreciate her. I can only anticipate a truly fun filled and exciting work career ahead of me at Robs IGA for the next two years! :) (at least!)

hello to all once again! this week has be wonderful so far, snd its only the middle tomorrow. im really looking forward to tomorrow... i will be hanging with my mother and then i will get to see my fantastic and sexy fiance! :)
heehee... more wedding things have slowly been getting done. Another milestone of wedding fun!? BRIDESMAIDS DRESSES! got done on Saturday I am THRILLED with what we chose, the dresses are very elegant, very pretty and are going to make my maids look super beautiful!
Next? get the guys all suited up on the 21st! Yay! very excited for that.

work is great, I really do love my job and the store I work in. its fun to be there and the time just flies by for me. Im learning so much of the file and I really do enjoy it so much!

so Cam and I are going to go and book our honeymoon on Saturday! Our destination???
The Dominican Republic!
I am super excited, he found an all inclusive resort which is apparently fanastic and greatly recommended by his parents travel agency. So... thats our honeymoon spot and I am EXTATIC! Because I never thought I would get to go there.

I just want to be married already... this waiting thing sucks :'(

Be BLESSED! :D

i just can't even begin to describe to you how amazing life is these days... God has blessed us ENORMOUSLY! with all that has been going on. i can't even fathom what other good stuff He has in store. my job is going wonderfully, i absolutely LOVE it, although im still a little nervous to go all on my own, im thankful that Cindy will be around till October to fix my wrongs, but im really confident with so much, doing a lot without help and taking the initiative. its great! :)

so... new news! a great friend of mine, kailee rathburn is looking into a friends condo to see if we can rent it out when the knot is finally tied! the condo is in Langley, we are just talking back and forth and we have no idea if there is a chance, but the opportunity is there and im thrilled! this would mean that we won't move into Abby but would then stay in Langley where we want to be anyways! from what we hear, the place is beautiful and only a year old!!!! so many prayers that if thats the place for us, that everything comes together.

so im sick :'(
and today Cam and I had a date planned after work, but i was just too sick to be able to go out and be much fun. SO... instead we stayed inside at my place and just relaxed, which was perfect for me. but you know what my amazing fiance did?! he surprised me with FLOWERS! and a really sweet card. just cause he loves me and wanted to spoil me. O that wonderful, amazing boy. i am so blessed! the being apart and not living two seconds from one another thing is REALLY REALLY HARD :'( we hardly see each other but only 6 and a half more months to go and we won't have to deal with it anymore! yay!

well... better go to bed and get some sleep, we have some bridesmaid dress shopping to do tomorrow, and im back to work bright and early on Sunday!

BLESSINGS! :)

so... many of you know that I work at IGA Marketplace in Cloverdale, well... today I started my training for FILE!!!! Im super super excited to be given this wonderful opportunity to further my "education" of the store. I really loved the training, I learn quickly so it was great to be shown what needs to get done on Sunday mornings, something I will be doing myself probably next month. But the job itself? LOVE IT! Seriously, I really like it, there is a lot of repetition and all, but its great, its something I see myself doing for a while. And I really love the store, I appreciate the managers and some workers. So.. PRAISE GOD! For this blessing and "promotion" because I feel like its exactly where Im supposed to be :)

YAY! FOR ME!
**big smile**