So.... I quit IGA today! actually, I put in my two weeks notice to Kathy, to give to Jon and my last day will be August 11th. Why??? Because I am going to be living full time in Abbostford at CBC this coming fall, September 2nd to be exact. And going back and forth to work, from Abby to Surrey to Abby to Surrey is just soooo hard with 15 credits, deadlines and opportunities to hang out with friends. Last year, I had no life at all. This year, I want time to socialize and I don't want to be stressed outta my mind that I get more ulcers and anxiety attacks. I will be applying for a job at the CBC cafeteria, for approx. 8-10 hours a week, which is nothing really compared to the 20 hours I was doing at IGA each weekend last year. So yep.. this is the plan. I'll reapply for cashier at IGA in April of next year for the summer... hopefully Jon will take me back, and if not. I will be applying to other places as well anyways! :)

O, also guess what???
IM GOING TO PALM SPRINGS most likly for vacation, after August 11th sometime. I will die though from the intense heat there is over there.. but o well! it'll still be TONZ OF FUN! and hopefully I'll get an awesome tan!!!!

well.... gots to go and sleep soon
Be Blessed!

IM SO BURNT... it hurts sooo much **sniff sniff** and its all in my cheeks and my nose. It's going to be horrible once it starts to peel... waaaaaaaaaaaaaa... I will now go and rub aloe vera on it, maybe that will help.

I have a pic to post soon :P

wear sunscreen!

I came across this old photo of Lauren and I, Im acutally not even sure when this was taken, but I absolutely LOVE this picture of us. Its one of my favorites. Reminds me how much life has changed, now that Lauren is off in England and has been since November of 2005. I miss her of course, but thats life. People move on, things change and thats okay. Im so happy that shes built such an incredible life there for herself.


Here is another one of Becky and I, she is now "Becky Davidson" and Im thrilled for her. Even more thrilled that she now lives here in Burnaby. I get to see her often when before I had to cross the border in order to visit, now she's only a 20 minute sky train ride away. YAY!!!!

Today...when I came up the stairs to the kitchen, a bunch of BEAUTIFUL red roses were awaiting for me along with a letter. Cam had dropped them off on his way to the airport this morning, waaay early this morning. and I LOVE THEM! Actually, I LOOOOVE him. SO much! So here are my perfect, red, wonderful roses.
I MUST show them off! :)

IM SIIIIIICK! **sniff sniff** yesturday I had heat stroke (im pretty sure thats what it was) and today my nose is all stuffy and all... sooo sucky! :P but O well! It'll pass in a couple of days.

I hope that everyone who is going to California to celebrate Cams grandmas birthday has a wonderful time! Be safe all of you! :)

Blessings!

my dad is so amazing I love him SO MUCH! he came home and surprised me with pink roses as his present to me for my birthday... the card made me cry!

Me and my beautiful flowers!

So yesturday was my 22nd birthday and I had SUCH A BLAST! it was the most wonderful day. My mom and younger brother Brandon took me out for breakfast to IHop, then we came home and mom and I suntanned outside for a couple hours while talking. We had the most incredible conversation, and discussed such matters as my previous post. Its so remarkable to me that her and I have such a close relationship, I am so blessed! Then her and I went out for starbucks, came home and my dad came home shortly after. WITH FLOWERS! I absolutely love flowers! especially roses. I cried when I read my card and hugged him so much in thanksgiving for such a beautiful gift. I then opened up my gifts. Underware (my favorite thing!) Starbucks travel mug, and the Peter Pan cartoon Disney movie. Indian food dinner is where we ate (also my favorite) and then picked up Becky from the skytrain station, Alissa and Lena came home and we hung out and had such a blast for the night. Saturday I get my birthday date with Cam and I am SOOOO EXCITED! its going to be wonderful, we're hopefully doing the beach and then seeing the Transformers movie! :) I know hes eager to see it, and so am I. so, YAY!
THANK YOU EVERYONE! for making my day amazing, for the phone calls, the gifts on facebook, the messages. IT HAS MEANT THE WORLD TO ME! seriously, you have no idea how much love I feel when I see those comments and how special you have all made me feel as well. I am beyond blessed.

I LOVE ROSES! :)

Im trying SO HARD to understand more about myself and why I abuse myself with food. And actually, Im finally getting somewhere! :) Im finally starting to find why I have taken the task of eating and have made it into an abusive activity. Which has caused all sorts of digestive and emotional problems.
This is actually because all my life Ive been told that Love is food. When I eat I used to be taught by my grandparents and then parents actions that to feel love is to eat, and to feel comfort is to eat. And so, I always have associated food with feeling loved. If I was sad about something, angry at someone and just plain unhappy... I would turn to food to make me feel better because I was taught to do that. Instead of dealing with my problems, working them out, coming to terms with tough situations, my reaction was to hide behind food.
NO MORE! and Im serious.
Im sick and tired of being sick...and I get sick A LOT. Im tired of feeling tired, Im tired of not dealing with myself and the things of my past. Because these actions and the way Im dealing with my problems and life today, is NOT going to help me tomorrow. Its not going to help cam and I when we finally do get married and it surely isn't going to help my children when I finally have them.
so... YAY! Im not afraid to revisit my past and deal with the hurts and pains I experienced that I was too afraid to experience at the time. Bring it on! :)
hahaha.....

I love my life, and I Love the people in my life.
I love Cam and the promising future that him and I have... I love myself and the path that God has me walking on, my life is NOT easy I can say that twice, but it is SO incredible and I am SO thankful.
So love... does not come from a chocolate bar, not from a bowl of icecream, nor from the craving that is overwhelming at the time. It comes from amazing people and an amazing God, This I FINALLY can understand.
yay for healing! :)
yay for promises unraveling themselves before my very eyes.

BE BLESSED!