13 weeks pregnant!

How far along: 13 weeks! 

(Picture taken at 12 weeks +4 days) 

SECOND TRIMESTER! Wahoooo. 

Size of baby: peach (7.6 cm long) 

Weight gain/loss: currently I do not care. I'm sure I've either gained a few pounds or I'm exactly the same as I was at the beginning. I was feeling so awful the first trimester that I ate anything and everything I could handle to help me feel just a little bit normal. 

Maternity clothes: I have a sorry excuse for a maternity wardrobe. I bought two pairs of maternity pants on the weekend but one is too big which means it'll probably be good for my third trimester. I got the pants for 50% off the sale price! $25/each. Such a great deal. And I bought a great jacket too! I've scoured the maternity stores but will keep looking for some great, light weight, comfy options. 

Movement: can you believe that I've been feeling rolling in my lower tummy since ten weeks? So crazy! No flutters yet and no obvious kicks but I'm definitely feeling something and I absolutely love it! 

Sleep: I'm not looking forward to the sleep deprivation that is to come. Especially since Edison finally started sleeping through the night back in March. Currently I'm waking often (about 2-4 times) to pee but we've got an ensuite now so it's not so bad.  

Cravings: so many cravings for sweets like sugar gummie candies & doughnuts. I'm not giving in all the time, just occasionally.  

Symptoms: heartburn is so so awful but I believe changing my diet can help that. The nausea this pregnancy has been HORRIBLE, so so horrible. My roseca is bad, flared and all. I'm huuuuge already, haha. I'm tired but I'm starting to get more energy back which is nice. This pregnancy is so different from Edison's so far. 

Best moment of the week: When we went to the ultrasound and saw baby bean (Edi came too). We were thrilled to learn that babe was a whole week older than expected. I got to skip entirely over week 11 and went straight to week 12 and now I'm just starting week 13. So excited, it's going fast! 

I'll try and post updates. I love having them for me to look back on but I'm also excited to share about baby beans progress. 

And just in case you were wondering... 

NO! We're not finding out gender. You'll have to wait along with us.

Blessings, 

N. 

Baby Bean is on it's way!

It's with much excitement that we announce that we're pregnant again! Due April 5th and are thrilled. This pregnancy has taken a lot of tears and time but also shown us patience, love, perseverance and faith. I am incredibly grateful. 

But it's with a cautious heart that I post our ultrasound picture. I'm fully aware this picture and announcement can be painful for some wonderful women I know experiencing the sting of infertility and frustration of a long wait for their positive pregnancy test. These women are on my heart and in my prayers. 

I can't help but remember just weeks before I got pregnant with bean, crying over a friends pregnancy announcement. I was thrilled for her but felt overwhelming grief that I should have my pumpkin (my lost May baby) in my arms. I'm not sure when that pain will go away but I remember the pain every so clearly and mourn with friends who have lost or who are struggling to concieve. This whole motherhood journey is a tough one. 

So to those woman on my FB, reading my blog posts. I'm sorry you're experiencing the grief of loss or the sting of infertility. I'm praying for you. I understand if you unfollow me, I understand if you just can't see me right now. I'm not offended. 

The reality for us this time is that it took us a miscarriage, 9 months of trying and many tears to get to this point. It wasn't easy to get pregnant this time. I believe it's happened at the right time but that didn't make the journey any less painful.

So with my joyful announcement I am grateful for the love, the congrats, the support, the prayers and ask that you pray for baby beans health. Because like I said to Cam last night, "I can try my hardest to disassociate myself from this life "just in case" but no matter what happens I'm this baby's mother. Now, today and for eternity and I'm madly in love." 

I'm beyond grateful, I fall to my knees in thankfulness because I believe it's only by Gods grace that I get to experience the joy of this life. My rainbow baby. 

N.