I really love this picture, and not because my face looks huge or because this was taken on Cams birthday. but just cause its "us"... relaxing and having fun. so I thought I'd share.

well... nothing exciting has happened at all lately, like nothing at all! hahaha... well, other then this wonderful woman who I know, from somewhere. I know its bad, but I honestly have no idea where I know her from. But anyways!
She knows of a counselling office in Abbotsford which is chrisitian and geared for pregnant teens and those struggling with having an abortion or such cases. Exactly what I want to get into when I graduate from CBC, and what Im looking into for an internship for my third year. Not this next year coming but the year after. so... YAY!
if I can volunteer there, or at least have coffee with some of the ladies that run it, and learn from them.. then that would be incredible!
so this woman I know that Im not sure if I actually know.. is getting me all the contact information I need.
I know its going to be hard to volunteer and connect there my first semester cause Im going to be so swamped. But it'll be sooo nice to get my "foot in the door" as my dad always says. or at least make it known that Im interested in that career choice and heading in that general direction and want some "mentoring" or help getting there.

yay... Im excited!

Blessings on ya! ;)

i believe that this summer is going to end up being something incredible for me. a change, a chance to grow in becoming the person i know that i am. in doing the things that ive always wanted to do. like paint! im SO EXCITED to finally paint. and the best part about it is my grandmother is a crazy good painter, i mean shes pro. so i must have some talent hidden within my genes somewhere! i asked her if she would show me how, get me started and she told me not to buy anything cause she has it all... perfect! however, she did tell me that the best thing to do to start is to sketch, so i need to go to Micheals and get me a sketch book with some pencils. im a little afraid that im going to suck! but i'll grow in it..

maybe when im a little bit more confident i'll post something ive done... when i finally produce something, yay for growth. that although its painful, its beautiful as well!

Be Blessed! :)

Pictues like I promised! My new Haircut! LOVE IT! What about you!?

well... I got a hair cut! totally spontaneous and completely shorter than I had oringinally hoped for, but hey! its a change. I will post a pic once I get back on my own computer at home in surrey with internet access, its frustrating to have no internet here in my apartment at CBC... Im really REALLY nervous about what my parents and Cam will say, but they need to love me, short hair and all anyways! :) **heehee** tonz of girls here say they love it, so thats such an encouragement... I love it too, just total shock right now, thats all!
Be Blessed!

yesturday i came to the point of realising that the ankle that i now have which is messed up and sprained i have no desire what - so - ever! to fix. what!?!?! this is what im a little afraid of... it seems so strange that having an injury like this would in no way bring me to want to change it. and i know for a fact that this is not a healthy thought process. it can't be... there is no way. ive been thinking, contemplating, wondering how in the world i can change this... pray for me!? im icing my ankle by the way and its slowly getting better, im wanting to finally do something about it.

why do things need to be so hard??... sometimes I just want to cry and pray with heart felt tears for things to just be better, for anything to happen to make it better.
Father God, I need a hug.

at the dinner table yesturday I was given the news that a girl who went here to CBC last year was killed in an avalanche.
the news has shocked me and although I do not know the girl personally, her boyfriend still goes here to CBC and lives in the OL house (outdoor leadership house) where a couple of my friends live. I do not know James, but I can only imagine the pain that he is experiencing and it's brought me to tears several times since yesturday.
the unnerving reality that death is sudden and real... and even that death can happen to those who I love and hold dear, that cam, my parents, family, friends are not safe from it, and neither am I. i never want to experience receiving a phone call hearing of cam or anyone else for that matter, who has passed suddenly.

so here is my heartfelt sorry.. for James, for Kims family and all those that have been affected by her death. I am so so so so sooo sorry, that this has happened, and I pray with all of my heart and energy that God will bring peace and comfort to you.
God Bless.