so I have worked friday and today (saturday) and now tomorrow awaits another shift. I am getting overwhelmed once again with the amount of stuff I have to do. Practically every day is work, considering I have classes and then the actual IGA job. Which I really enjoy by the way... so its not that the job is super stressing or anything, its more that I feel like I dont have time for anything to do with school anymore, that I dont even have time to be at church even.
and this frustates me and stresses me out to no end. The down side, I would be loosing potential money. But is it worth it? I mean I'd most likly be working 12 hours a week at $9 a hour, instead of 18 hours a week. At least its something right?!
I think Im going to ask Jon if there is a possibility with cutting out sunday shifts. Just cause its getting too much, if he says no then I will obviously make it work, but if he says yes, then I think I would be a lot happier.
**cross fingers** pray that it will go over well, and that hopefully Jon likes me enough to not mind.

BE BLESSED :)

so things in life, in these regards are good.... I have nothing really to complain about, unless the amount of homework which gets increasingly large is something to vent about. The material is awesome! and its hard to believe that Im actually studying for a B.A! wow, me with a B.A??? that'll be the day (sometime in 2009 to be exact)
but anyways...
I encourage you all that are interested... to read my IBS blog.
I know, I know, hearing about a digestive disorder isnt so exciting, but its whats going on with me, so take a peek and I'll keep posting here too, I promise!

BE BLESSED! :)

o yah... still totally considering that nose piercing and tatoo that I am wanting... still not sure... yet still not totally convinced that its a no, maybe I'll randomly post a pic with me all decked out with both! hahahah..... **ponders**

what is with almost everyone I know getting engaged?? Two more of my friends just got engaged last week! Its crazyness, there are going to be sooo many weddings these next couple of years that I wont be able to afford it! AH! o well, I am sooo super happy for everyone being in love and celebrating the next step of their lives! yippee!!... so...
CONGRATULATIONS
Amy and Nowell, along with Katie and Mike!
Thats so awesome for you guys, Im SUPER excited for you! :)

Things ROCK!
I am so happy that I dont know what to do with myself... hahaha... School is awesome, Im still freaking with the amount of homework I have, but Ive calmed myself down a bit now. I'll just have to deal with some late nights and early mornings to get things done, but I think I'll manage, along with having some fun thrown in there somewhere.

Cam and I are awesome! Life is great there... things at school have gotten settled and I have found myself falling more and more in love with him with every moment we get to spend together. God is sooo good! :) I am so crazy blessed. Seven months are coming up soon! yay.

So its offical... Im going to Africa!! Just not right away... no worries, I wont be on a plane anytime soon, its more like January 2008, but still. Thats kinda soon, one year and four months. :S yikies! But its for my B.A I cant graduate without going to Africa, so what an awesome deal there huh!? hahah... I think so! :) When I go, chances are its going to be in Zambia working at a highschool with teenage girls, at a bible school, with discipling them. Working with the whole HIV and AIDS situation as well... its going to be great! Im looking forward to it, and harsh preparing myself emotionally, and Gods helping with the spiritual part as well (of course) But please pray for me with that decision, with if Africa is really where he wants me and that things go smoothly while setting up the internship. Thanks! :)

So... Im back on my big IBS/GLUTEN FREE eating plan. And its pretty much going super great. Ive kinda scared myself this past week with losing six pounds in a week!!! Im smaller than Ive ever been before! And so that really is exciting, Im not going to lie! haha, but If I keep losing this much then my mom is going to take me to a nutrionist, if it gets to be too much, but that'll only happen if I loose more than 25lbs. so, lets hope that I stop losing this fast, cause last time I was on my diet like this I lost approx.40lbs in two-three months :S ... but yah... but YIPPEE! That the eating plan is working as awesome as it is, I dont feel bloated, Im not wanting to throw up, I dont have any more stomach pain, and I just feel great! So YAY! :) Im so glad, and Im staying on it for good, I'll just cheat with Ben and Jerrys maybe once a month! :) you know, for a treat! heehee.

well... Im off to sleep now!
BE Blessed! :)

so school, although stressing about the homework, Im eager to get back on campus tomorrow night. I organized all of my books and wrote out a scheduale of all my assignments, there are actually not as many as I first anticipated. I think I'll do alright this semester! I think that I'll be okay... work these past couple shifts have been a walk in the park! it's so easy! Some people have been annoying, but thats what happens when you work with the public, o-well. I'll put on my happy face and ask for Gods paitence and love to shine through and be apart of me, especially at work.... I just cant let it phase me. I need the money, desperately! And Gods providing! so yay for that.
Even though this year is going to be crazy busy, I am not so stressed out about it anymore. Which I am thankful for, I am just going to take it a day and month at a time, and rest in Gods faithfulness.

well.... ive been doing a lot of thinking about my whole schooling, my semester this year and the next. You see I am in the Intercultural Studies BA program, which includes a eight month (minimun) internship missions trip to anywhere I want to go (or more like anywhere God tells me to go) before I wasnt so excited for it, more scared and terrified of the thought of it. But now that I have two amazing mission classes this semester I can't stop thinking about it. And I cant hep but feel the huge nudge and painful push to go January 2008, instead of my planned September 2008. SO! I am going to go in and make an appointment with Brian the missions director at CBC and see what he says, I know he'll encourage me to go for sure in January and if everything comes together super well, maybe that'll just be the case. WOW! I mean Ive always been super excited to do missions, but this will be alone, just me, in Africa most likly, doing Gods work. Its a dream come true, yet a scary reality. So, please pray for this internship, for Gods guidence. Cause I really hear him yelling at me to go in Jaunary instead of waiting and pushing it farther cause I want things my way. I want things to happen in life before I go, I want things to be secure before I go, I want to go with Dara! hahaha... but Im hearing him say that my life is his and HE SAYS when I go not me, and that life will be fine and his will is going to be done when I get back.... I hear him calling me to prepare myself and take these mission classes super seirously.
So.... here we go, lets see what happens!!!

O yah... Im going to China next summer! :) on a missions trip with my church, its not for sure yet cause I havent applied and I havent payed anything, but Im confident that I'll have the opportunity. Im super SUPER excited! :)

Be Blessed! **big smiles**

so this week has been crazy... even just today has been the most overwhelming of them all. My weeks to come look NUTS!
crazy overwhelming that I dont know when I'll have a chance to breathe, and I still have a man I want to spend time with and cuddle with whenever I get the chance :) So I hope that I'll learn to take energy out of whatever situation Im in this year... AHHH... yep, thats me thinking of what I have infront of me for the next eight months. O well....things are going to be great. My classes are AMAZING! I am super excited for everything I am going to be able to do. I am so excited for the things that are to come, for growth in Christ, for learning the bible so much more then I do now... for the assingments that seem to be so exciting. Also, for new friendships that will form throughout the months... things seem good... really good! :D
I think however that I might ask for Sundays off work now... I might give it a couple of months and see what happens, either that or ask for a smaller shift. Im not sure yet, I think I might give it a while yet to see... but Im scared that I'll run out of energy really quickly if I dont have a time to just stop and do nothing. I think I might run it by my boss/manager sometime this weekend. Hopefully it'll be okay... pray for me guys! :D

well... off to sleep! Im EXHAUSTED :S
Be Blessed! :)

ps. GOD IS GOOD! hes doing incredible things... like always! :)

those of you that visit often, may become confused to the new title, verse and layout of my trusty blogger site. Yes, this is still me, still my blog and still my life. I am still devoted to Jesus Christ (as the verse clearly states) and I still am "simply driven by Christ" that will forever be apart of who I am. Driven solely on the passion, purpose and faith that comes with giving ones life to Jesus Christ.

and although all those things are extremely important, I feel the need for a name change and a new direction to walk in my life.
to be a forgiven victory...

let me explain.
I recently found that my name means VICTORY, along with the definition of saved, victorious in battle and being given victory
I found this to be appropriate because there have been so many things in my life that I have been victorious in, and many things now that I need Gods grace, mercy and forgiveness to find victory and overcome them.
God has forgiven me for many events, and things that I have done, yet each time...hes is gracious enough to bring me victory in it all.

its an encouragement....that I can be a forgiven victory in the things today and tomorrow that are keeping me where I am, and I need, only through Gods strength to pass through the bondage.
so... PRAISE GOD!
AND
BE BLESSED! :)