so im just in the midst of midterms... yep, thats right! Ive just finished my second for the day, and now I am just waiting for the third. Yikies, I dont think ive been this stressed for a while. And Cam is sick :'( So even when I need a hug or a bit of relaxation, hes so sick that he has been sleeping and cant come over... **sniff sniff** its okay though... Hes getting better! yay.
although I think I might be getting the cold now... after these three tests, I have one more which I need to start studying for, that one is on Halloween. Old Testament Survey! O yay! hahahah... I love the course, yet get overwhelmed with the studying involved, o well, I got 70% on my last test, YIPPEE!! considering the class average was 65%.
I guess I better go and brush up on my Acts knowledge, considering that one is up next...

Be Blessed :)

"Everything is permissible for me"—but not everything is beneficial. "Everything is permissible for me"—but I will not be mastered by anything."Food for the stomach and the stomach for food"—but God will destroy them both. The body is not meant for sexual immorality, but for the Lord, and the Lord for the body. By his power God raised the Lord from the dead, and he will raise us also. Do you not know that your bodies are members of Christ himself? Shall I then take the members of Christ and unite them with a prostitute? Never! Do you not know that he who unites himself with a prostitute is one with her in body? For it is said, "The two will become one flesh."[b] But he who unites himself with the Lord is one with him in spirit.

Flee from sexual immorality. All other sins a man commits are outside his body, but he who sins sexually sins against his own body. Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body.
1 Corninthians 6:12-20



I absolutely LOVE this passage... and as I meditate on it I find that my body, my life and who I am has purpose and meaning in Christ. That I am united with Christ! He lives within me! I am Holy! What an incredible revelation, what incredible truth! I am thrilled to be called a daughter of the living God. I am a child of God.
I can not just allow myself to be destroying myself with things that are not good for myself. I can not self destruct. I am worthy! I am worthy of love, I am worthy of life and of love, especially the Love of Christ Jesus! PRAISE GOD!
I am freed from the perception that I am worthless, I am free from the perception that I am not worthy of anything but destruction, the enemy has shut up, because God is my God... and I am under the umbrella of his life, I am white as snow! I am loved, loved more then I can even imagine... you should see me! I am glowing. :)

Be Blessed!
And remember... JESUS LOVES YOU!
Believe it to be true.

lately ive had such a hard time with stuff... i dunno if any of you have noticed or not. its okay if you havent, dont feel bad, really!
things are going a lot better. in a half an hour (acutally less than that) im going to go and meet with John Schmidt and his wife for prayer counselling. Im nervous, Im scared, Im excited and Im eager. This is a step in the right direction and I am finally willing and ready to go there. To find spiritual healing as well as physical healing. so yay! :) be happy for me.
God has been revealing many things to me today and yesturday, once ive been ready to lay some things down and ready to take what is coming. its really exhausting to fight the spiritual fight, maybe that is why i am so exhuasted lately, im getting my 8-9 hours of sleep a night, so it shouldnt be, thats what makes me wonder, ive been in spiritual fights like this before, never though has it been so intense within myself.
God loves me! God is right here with me! God has a plan and purpose for me! God is leading me to places that I have not been willing to go for so long, and this is okay!
so.... yes! I have not much more to say... wish me luck! as I walk into my prayer time and discover ways that God is trying to meet with me! :)

Be Blessed! :)

so Im kinda scared, this new Old Testsament Quiz that I have going on... on Tuesday, this coming Tuesday.
I studied a bit today, will study again tomorrow, sunday and monday, I didnt do so good on the first one (barely pasted) now there is this one coming up thats supposed to be a lot harder :S
so PLEASE pray for me and think about me on Tuesday, espeically about this test.
I want to get at least a better mark then I did before... I love the material, I mean learning about the Old Testament is amazing and wonderful! Its incredible stuff... its just having to know ALL the detail, it gets really overwhelming, really really fast.
so thanks so much for thinking about me!

other then that, life is AWESOME!
work is great... although today wasnt such a great shift (fri night) However, I do have the next two saturdays off! :) But for studying for midterms :S So... not soooo much fun! I wanted the sunday off too, but didnt get it, o well, no big deal.
life is just super busy, keep busy with everything, its all good though...

off to sleep now, need to wake up tomorrow, buy more IBS pills... some brown rice bread! Yummies, and soy milk! extra yummies and then OT crazy studying! yippeee...
*yawn*

Be Blessed! :)

many of you who know me well, have been walking with me through this "healing journey" of mine for the past three and a half years. You have seen me cry... you have heard me wail, you have witnessed my ups and downs of life living with IBS. The drama, pain and complete helplessness. I have prayed since the day I started to feel unhealthy for healing... for a way to deal with this disorder/disfunction, a way to just make it so that I can be "normal" once again. And I have tried, through several ways... denying, ignorning, anger and frustrations to find "normal" within myself again, since I have honestly forgotten what life was like before IBS.

Yet... through my prayers.... through my desperate account of feeling hopeless, unnormal and without cause or puropse, God has clearly spoken his words, and Im finally mature enough and open enough to listen. I have finally set aside my anger at him, at life, at others and at myself to hear what he has had to say for some time.

I WILL BE YOUR STRENGTH IN YOUR WEAKNESS.

I love this! He will be my strength through my digestive problems. He will be my strength when I have nothing to eat, when I am sick, when I am hurting, when I am down to the lowest I possibly can get. HE will be MY strength. I believe now more then ever that God is using this problem of mine for his purposes, that he is transforming my life into his great will. I do not believe that he gave me this disorder, but I do believe that he can use it for his amazing purpose for his kingdom!! I do beleive that and now can understand that I do have a purpose, my IBS has a purpose and can be used has a means for compassion to the sick of the world. To those that are sick and have no hope, to bring them the understanding that there is always hope through sickness, there is always hope in Christ. :)

so... those that are praying for my healing. you can stop! You can pray instead that his amazing purpose is done through this struggle of mine. I no longer view my IBS as a means of a negative burden in my life, God believes that I can handle it... God has given me all his resources to handle it! so here I go... taking the step to believe that this can be the biggest gift and most positive event in my life!

PRAISE GOD! i say it again! PRAISE GOD! Amen! :)