I feel sooo overwhelmed by wedding details, O MY GOODNESS there are sooo many things to consider, I feel like something that we think is concrete just all the sudden works out horribly and needs to be re-planned. eeeekkkk!!!!...

Then there is the dreaded list of to-dos which doesn't seem to get smaller, my child psychology stuff and work still.
And not everyone has RSVP'd so although I was supposed to have everyone tell me no or yes by November 1st, its the 17th and I am still waiting on replies!
GRRRRRrrrrr.....

Im going to sleep now!

CAM AND I GOT A PLACE!

yippeeee... its a loft in the apartment complex that we were both dying to get into. we have laundry in our loft, and its like a house cause it has its own entrance and all... its in one of the townhome buildings and Im sooo excited to decorate it!

One bedroom, one bath and the cutest little kitchen. Its perfect for our first place!

what an answer to prayer :)

literally, i feel like superwoman right now. its not that i have tights on with an estranged need to fly... but that i feel like i have conquered such a horror in my life and that i have come up ontop, skinny style! hahaha...

ive lost a total of twenty pounds in the past two months. i don't mean to brag, and its not about bragging at all, its not about "o look im getting skinny" its about the incredible accomplishment of kicking enemy endo butt and how SureSlim (the program im on) has been such an incredible tool in the process of it all. so seriously, if anyone of you is looking for a way to get healthy, this program is amazing!

but its not even about the program, my friend Jared is over at my house with my brothers playing video games all last night and today! its such a hoot when Jared comes over and soon he s moving to Aussie so it was imperrative that he come soon, so we made sure that we went out and did something last night, and well us Kroekers love to eat so... we went to Olive Garden, we drank and we were merry! (brandon drove home). but after the meal, after the dessert, after the fun... and back at home with guys around me playing video games until five in the morning, i didn't feel anything. NOT A THING! in my precious little tummy of mine. its like Dr Williams took a magic wand and made all the horror of the past five years vanish. its as though the memories of sitting in the pantry and crying because there was nothing for me to eat without pain never actually occured. the pantry is not a vortex of death, it doesn't matter anymore.

three months ago, if i was going to have that awesome night of carboydrate fun with the guys, i would bloat so bad my pants wouldn't fit and i would immediately need either a sweater or sweat pants, i would complain of horrendous cramping pain and i would have it all for at least two days, followed with what my docs called "terminal constipation" i would have to spend the night tossing and turing from the cramps, drink masses amounts of herbal teas and use hot water bottles to ease the discomfort. all that agony over one bowl of pasta and some bread sticks! sometimes, i would even get the pain from a bowl of salad!!! i would also gain at least five pounds from the experience. no wonder i gave up on food choices and let go, huh?

its incredible how such a small procedure has now fixed all of that, and how such a small mishap in my reproductive organs could have caused such agony for so long. I am SO BLESSED! beyond what i ever could have imaged to be cured the way that i have and to have such incredible friends and family around me in the process. im still on the SureSlim program, its helping with making me feel completely transformed and completely different from that girl that went into the surgery centre almost a month ago. Seriously people, i came out different... endo free, and i am super excited!
and all in time for my wedding, woot woot! :)

Blessings.

hey everyone!

lots has been happening, work is great! I am really enjoying the file work, even when its unbelievably stressful, but it makes work and life always interesting. Keeps me on my toes!

wedding stuff! O my goodness, six weeks on Saturday and its HERE! eeeekkk... so very excited. Everything is coming together, I have things running through my head constantly, new things to do and reminders to book last minute details. I am thrilled with the outcome, its going to be better than I am expecting I think :)

Prayer request please!
Cam is looking for an apartment in Abbotsford, and we thought we got one, we were already to make the payment and sign the papers when it came back that the guy promised it to us a little too soon.. and needs to go through head office to confirm that its alright to offer to us. So.. what seemed like such a blessing and such a for sure thing is becoming more stress than needed. Please pray that if its Gods will that we can have this apartment, it has laundry, its in our price range, two bedrooms and its huge! I would looove to spend my first months as a married couple in that apartment.

As well, please keep praying for our house to sell. The market out there is not nice right now and my parents are feeling the effects. Its really scary and we just desperately want a sold sticker out on that sign.

thanks for the prayers and support,

Blessings!

ps. I am feeling fantastic lately! :)
mom even mentioned today that I haven't been complaining about pain at all anymore, which is because I don't have it anymore. PRAISE THE LORD that this healing has taken place, it was a long road, but it was definitely worth it!!
As well, I am back on my program and shed another five pounds this week. yipppeee...