HUGE thanks to everyone who posted on my last post and gave me a great big hug and "its okay to stress about the stressful guest list" speech. I appreciate and LOVE you all so very much in your quest to love and encourage me. Its SO appreciated! This weekend was a really productive wedding weekend, which is just more and more exciting. Saturday I worked until 6pm and then Cam came over and hung out with little wedding discussion (mostly just nice and relaxed time). Then today Cam came over to work in our garden with the guys, pulling out weeds and putting in fresh dirt! The garden looks GREAT and Cam did an amazing job. I am so proud of my fiance, working hard and doing is very best and taking pride in his work. It makes me thrilled that he does so well in all of his accomplishments, along with youth work and landscaping. I love to see his finished work and I just can't wait to hear about his youth nights when he gets home on Thursday nights and calls me up to fill me in! But anyways, thats enough bragging. Bakerview church, the one that Cam interns at emailed me about a month ago asking if today would be a good day for me to attend a bridal/baby shower in honor of all the new brides and babies of Bakerview, not knowing anyone at all I said "sure! I would LOVE to come" and so mom and I went today and had such a great time! I am soooo happy that they had invited me, I was even honored in a slide show, had to stand up with lots of lovely ladies going "awwwww... " when introduced as Cam's fiance, and even got a card and a gift which I never expected. I was floored as to the hospitality and gentle loving kindness they all showed. THANK YOU SO MUCH! My first "shower" and I loved every moment of it. I even sat next to one of those honored babies who was ADORABLE! makes me want babies (umm... Cam... nudge nudge).
My card was even wrapped with beautiful ribbon that I took home, showed Cam and later attached to our prototype invitation and both of us were like "THATS THE RIBBON!" hahahaha.... so ummm... where did you find it!?
Eric Ens (who is marrying us) and Karen Roeck (his daughter and long time friend) came over tonight as well to discuss ceremony. We pretty much got it all planned out (except fine details, like word for word what we're saying) and Im STOKED! to have that in the works already... its all coming together nicely! They stayed for a bit to chow down on some yummy salmon and that brings me to this moment sitting on the couch sweating and having stomach pain which is keeping me up, but not grumpy!

all in all... good, great weekend. Tomorrow Im off to see Kortney, very excited to have coffee with her after work. Then Wednesday I have off and will be seeing Nantina. Saturday is then Jason and Brandon's birthday paintball extravaganza where I am hoping to coax Cam into a romantic evening... we'll see if its a success!

Loves and hugz... and of course, blessings to all

O yah... God is doing some remarkable things to my mind and heart in regards to health and wellness, there are still some habiats that I obviously need to break free from but overall, my goodness my mind is opening up and my passions are openly changing. its remarkable what God can do! and what he can reveal. Im PSYCHED!

I almost forgot... my part of the guest list is complete and Im SO HAPPY that its done. Im not sure if changes will take place, but I am confident with the end result and very happy with the number. There is still Cams list, Karen/Kelvins and my parents list to add to create the master one. But mine is done, and thats all that matters at this exact moment... so **breathing sigh of relief** stress eliminated and sleeping bliss will commence :)

THE GUEST LIST IS DRIVING ME CRAZY!!!!! just thought I would scream my frustrations out on here, okay. Im done, well not really, I haven't even started the guest list and I am planning to order paper from Traci really soon here. BA! So seriously people, if I offend you by not giving you an invite, Im seriously just not going to care so much because this is one of the, no! this IS the most stressful part of the whole experience and I will not deal with it any longer! :P

**deep breath**

I feel MUCH better now!

seven months today and i am going to marry this magnificent man! i am super, crazy emotionally excited! im sure you have no idea unless you talked to me about it... i cant believe how fast the time is flying away. it feels like just yesterday cam and i were discussing marriage and then just days after that where we came up with a date, all the sudden we're engaged (best day ever!) and now ive been wearing my ring for over three months and the date is just 7 months away!
cam and i just visited a friend of karen (cams mom) who happens to be a florist! (SCORE!) so... we met with her on sunday, she is a sweetheart and im thrilled to be working with her on my flowers, just a little wait to see how the prices will pan out and then a deposit and the deal is done! SUPER thrilled that she is going to try and make my wedding bouquet come true! my dream one that is. im thrilled that this is one more wedding essential being taken care of.

this week im working hard, once again. i am seeing Becky tomorrow, my super pregnant friend, along with two other friends to attend the show of the new Hillsong United movie at Metrotown. it shall be grand!
then its work and relaxing until Saturday when i get to see Cam again! (im a dork, its torture to not see him everyday like we are used to, the wedding can't come soon enough!) then Sunday for more wedding planning!!!!!
O, i get to go to the Bakerview bridal shower, where they have invited me to attend so that they can celebrate with me and Cams engagement! I was super surprised and honored to be asked to come and be celebrated! wow! very excited for that :)

so... thats my week! its going to be good.
Blessings.

motivation is a word with lots of well... availability for lacking. thats me at this moment, with no "lets do it!" enthusiasm anymore. i mean i feel poor, and i see the sickness bloat me every time food enters my stomach, but the motivation to stick to a diet that only the most determined person on earth can succeed at is seeming to be impossible. what do i do? i have no clue at the moment!

food journal, exercise program, weekly planning, that makes more sense to me. ba! just me here complaining once again.

my weekend, looks good!
seeing Narnia with my brothers, Cam and Brandon's girlfriend tonight... late. Then its a nice, wonderful day of relaxing on Monday! yippppeeee for relaxing!

and all you who got to enjoy the sun these past couple of days, I envy you :P
I enjoyed from my till at IGA, it was a marvelous sight.

Blessings!

its official... the bridal party has changed!!! and I am really happy with adding two wonderful friends of mine to the mix of peeps who will stand next to me and support me on my big, wonderful day! :)

Julie Ratcliff and Alissa Dueck, are going to be among my supporters! :)

If you have kept up with my blog you will know that my precious friend Becky Davidson is expecting her first bundle of joy and therefore, is due about a month before the wedding and with no concrete indication if she will be in Canada for the date. Therefore, with much sadness on both parts she has stepped down of bridesmaid duties and I have had the luxury of praying, contemplating and debating what to do. I have always considered these two to be in the party since the start. They are supported me, stood by me, they are incredible and amazing women of God and just friends all together. They always lend their ears, give advice, hug! Love, and give of themselves with all of them selves. I love them both to pieces, I respect them, adore them and am thrilled to have them be there for me.

So the party:
Nantina Tyerman, maid of Honor
Julie Ratcliff, bridesmaid
Alissa Dueck, bridesmaid
Jennifer Wohlgemut, bridesmaid
Michele Walker, bridesmaid
(and not in this order, I have no clue!)
and the official, unofficial: Becky Davidson, supporter extraordinaire!

The wedding planning is coming along, next on the list, florist who we are seeing Sunday, then meeting with our "officiant" who happens to be a close family friend, Eric Ens! along with meeting his daughter Karen Roeck who is doing piano (shes amazing!) then its dress/tux shopping, invitation paper ordering, and a meeting with Tracey for decor change.
WOW!!!!!

Okay, bed for me so that I can sleep and be prepared for work tomorrow morning, start at 9am. (yipppeeeeee!!!!!) honestly, I LOVE my job and the people I work with. I mean I miss CBC and the lunch ladies, but this is good too! :)

Blessings on you!

today was mothers day, which was such a wonderful thrill for me to absolutely spoil my mother (and soon to be mother in law). i made my mother breakfast, bought her flowers, a cd, some chocolate and an apron with fancy new oven mits. all with the help with my brothers and my father of course. it was such a fun day, to drive into Richmond and spoil my grandma with our presence, buy her flowers and give her tonz of kisses. i love to make the important women in my life feel amazing, they deserve every moment of it and i expect it from my children when they are my age. its the thing to do... spoil the ones you love with love and gifts! :)

lately, ive been scared of my health. ive been scared because things aren't working properly and ive discovered what coffee does to me, which is such a downer since its one of my favorite treats. but coffee FOR SURE gives me tough headaches, wreaks havoc on my digestion, gives me cramps and makes me sleepy, this is even the case with decaf. tough huh?! ive been trying other "helpful" digestion remedies which are supposed to help me but have done nothing, i take a handful of pills in the morning and hemp hearts to give me some relief and health, all they do now is make me almost gag. BAAAAA!!!! and its next to impossible for me to find a doctor who will LISTEN and get down to the bottom of my failing health. my inner ears hurt all the time now too... im concerned that i have an ear infection thats been brewing for the past couple of months but if thats the case then i believe i would be a lot sicker than i am (like fever, loss of balance, etc..)
IF ANYONE KNOWS OF A GOOD DOCTOR TAKING PATIENTS PLEASE GIVE ME THEIR NUMBER!
cramps and crazy fatigue which ive been struggling with for the past week along with insane cravings and intense desire to snack have been my days lately. when your hormones are all over the place it seems impossible to control what you want to put in your mouth, so i feel out of control in the whole diet territory which has made my diet impossible to follow. tomorrow im back on the program, im putting my foot down against myself and its certainly not easy. i mean when you feel like crap you just want to eat crap and forget the consequences of it.

okay, i sound like a downer.

reality, i am finding new ways to deal with everything. my intelligent brother put it this way "YOU only have the power to get over it and find a way to live with it and fight it" sooo much truth in that.

Life is wonderful and wedding planning is going very well. Its almost time for bridesmaid dress shopping! :) eeeeeeekkkk..... its still all so surreal, even after the wedding dress shopping, I LOVED trying them all on, I almost wish it would have taken longer, so I could have allowed it to sink in more.
Marriage and all that comes with it is sinking in more and more these days, the intense conversations, and such that come along with them are making things a bit more real for me today, a good real of course!

Work tomorrow, then a wonderful time with Nantina to discuss wedding, chat it up and for me to admire her new intense skinny figure! very excited.
and I hope to see Alissa this week... that would be super!
wahoooo for good friends and good times! I looooove my coffee dates :) (well, tea dates now I guess)

Blessings

so... another big wedding planning event is done! I got my dress today and its fantastic! I looooove it so much. Its perfect, absolutely perfect! But... no no no, no peeking for anyone other then a select few. Not even my father or brothers are going to know what I will look like until the big day! So don't even bother asking me what designer, or what "kind" of dress it is. Because I am NOT spilling the beans.

Off to bed... to dream fantastic wedding dreams! :)

Blessings!

so Im going wedding shopping!!! that is dress shopping I mean and I am SUPER EXCITED for it, unfortunately I have been feeling super sick/crampy these past couple of days (well, this whole week in fact) which has made it interesting at work and with eating. my tummy is NOT happy, I think that I need to keep reminding myself that I have this "problem" that doesn't seem to go away, and that its apart of life right now until I can get it fixed and just ignoring it won't make it disappear so fighting the uncontrollable cravings, bloat, pain, headaches, dizzyness and such is just something which needs to be done. I can't just give in all the time and allow these things to rule my day. So...its such a fantastic character adjustment and takes enormous strength, which Im most definitely learning daily, this can only make me more of the person I am, it can only foster incredible growth and perseverance, which I am proud of myself for continuing to strive to acheive!

BUT.. back to happy point. WEDDING DRESS SHOPPING! super excited, super happy! :)

O, and I got two more engagement cards in these past couple of weeks (one today), which I absolutely LOVE receiving, they are so much fun. Makes me smile super big when I get them in the mail.

If I buy anything I will let you know! :)
but I won't be giving out details, thats a secret... ESPECIALLY to be kept from Cam.

Blessings,

O and can you believe it!? ALMOST... just SEVEN MONTHS away! eeeekkk... its coming super fast, I LOVE it.

I feel absolutely motivated to do what I completely desire to do and accomplish for myself. I know that within the second week of a new "lifestyle change" the individual doesn't feel so motivated anymore and the real challenge begins. Well, Im in week three and with continuously revamping the way I am doing this, I keep myself motivated. Another thing that is keeping me on track in my thinking and progress. Womens Health Magazine. I LOVE this magazine because the tips are great, the info is real and it continues to keep you thinking about what you can do to better yourself. "If they can do it, I can do it!"
So what the heck am I talking about?
I am really trying hard to better myself health wise, and I know that I keep talking about health and that I need to change my habits, etc... but its seriously the truth. About two months ago I noticed that my hair was coming out a lot more in chunks and bunches when I ran my hands through it. SICK right? YAH! Then I read in Womens Health that the first thing to go and tell-tale sign of horrible health is in your hair.
O REALLY! I said out loud (at work on my lunch break!), then this means that EVERYTHING needs to change. And so it will...

I have strength in the Lord, motivation beyond what I feel I need and a bunch of people to help me get through.. Im excited, I will be challenged and its all for health, for myself. yippeeee! :)

Blessings.